I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing through the melting walls ( Read more... )

I hate myself and want to die. Although I suppose "my life" should be substituted for "myself".

Stolen from xonodoubt69

If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.

That's right people. The counting of days of pain has concluded. Only 3 days hmm. Technically it was 4, but I didn't write on Friday. So yeah, it would seem things are back the way they used to be. Earlier today I wrote to Heather. Don't really wanna talk about that, though. So later tonight I said I'd pierced my tongue (joking) and he asked if it ( Read more... )

And here we are concludiing Day 3. And this time I mean it when I say the entry will be shorter. I got so wrapped up in my second thought last night that I forgot to mention the essential event of Day 2. Josh wrote his email to Heather, at least the important part of it. He showed it to me and I thought he was telling the story right, and that he ( Read more... )

So here I am at the end of Day 2. I'll try and keep this entry short since the last one was a freakin novel. So today went better, I think. I probably only cried for about 2 hours total, which is an improvement. Although we did seem to bring up the infortunate incident quite a bit. Pretty much like, can you handle me being with Heather this summer ( Read more... )

So it would seem Day 1 of the pain has concluded. All day I tried not to think about it, I tried to pretend like it was just any other day and nothing was different between us. But that didn't really work out cuz he was different with me, like he wouldn't talk for a long time, or he would say he was gonna do something but then not say bye, so I ( Read more... )

So last night, Josh tells me Heather wants to get back together with him and that he doesn't know what to do. I was like...how could you not know what to do? I mean, I thought we had something. He even said we had something. But apparently not enough a something to stand in the way of getting back together with the ex. I tried to figure out why he ( Read more... )

I am so very sad. :*(****************************************