Why do I hold higher expectations?

It is the casino. After the effort I put into looking good my husband thinks I look "nice".

Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..............

I'm stuck in the middle. The "With you" doesn't fit here. It's just me by my lonesome.

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Lately I'm finding myself more and more often in the middle of a tug of war between Curt and Ash for my time and attention. I'm not a "victim" mindset sort of person; I know that I am allowing myself to be put in the middle, but I'm at a total loss to find a way ( Read more... )

Today we had our first big Family feast since Ash and Dahli came home. We do Easter like we do Christmas....it's bunnies and eggs and candy, and an excuse to cook a big fancy meal. I don't claim my girls are stringently heathen, but for sure they all get the bigtime creeps from ideas like organized religion or any hint of a Christian slant on any ( Read more... )

What a glorious morning. We were able to keep the bedroom windows open overnight and this morning I woke to the golden light of a Spring sunrise in a room made deliciously cool by a light breeze. Now that beats being jarred awake by the alarm in pitch blackness any day ( Read more... )

Ash and Dahli are home again. She called in crisis yesterday morning at 8:00 am and we were picking her up from the Des Moines Airport at 7:00 pm. The back story is same old, same old.

She says she's home for good this time. Hmmmm.

.....Here's a new dipping sauce I've recently added to my repertoire, and we're loving the shit out of it ( Read more... )

So I turned 45 the end of last month. The past few years I've made a supreme effort to "be good", to act my age, to be the kind of wife my fabulous husband deserves. I haven't been going to Guttenberg and being naughty with Stace. I've severely curbed the risk taking. As a result, life is boring. I'm not living anymore. I'm not feeling that pulse ( Read more... )

Mandatory Unpaid Days. You have to be a State of Iowa employee to understand or even care. What it boils down to is because our state revenues suck the big one and it's an election year and our state legislators don't want to go on record as raising taxes, we State employees are doing their job for them by each taking 5 unpaid days in fiscal 2010. ( Read more... )

Today Kel turns 47. It doesn't seem possible that we're really that old, but there ya have it. My annual birthday gesture is to make her a birthday cake, a triple chocolate bundt with dark chocolate glaze and mini M&Ms on top. That was my plan for what I was going to do today ( Read more... )

Day three of vacation. No dramatic dashes to DC and back outracing a huge storm this year, I'm afraid. We'll be doing daytrips instead ( Read more... )