disturbing things and a good news
At work, 3 days of partime job, Mo wasn't being 'Mo' at all.
At work, 8 hours each day, Mo turned into Ms. F.
Ms. F wore a red cheongsam blouse and black knee-lenght skirt at work. she smiled the nice and customized smile, she walked the way a 'girl' would walk, she talked softly and bowed politely to everyone she met. Ms. F was a girl, and maybe she will be 'is' oneday. While Mo hoped that she would just be a part of his dirty past.
Mo pretended like he was acting in a play on a big stage called Wedding Hall, a play for money. each time Ms. F smiled at someone, Mo would curse inwardly, calling them with every dirty word he could find in such small brain. each time Ms. F talked nicely to someone that Mo didn't really like, Mo would just keep on telling them how stupid they were for getting impressed with a fake character like Ms. F. And everytime someone seemed to try to go after Ms. F and asked for her cellphone number, Mo would just smirked and looked at them with such pity. wait until you find out the truth, asshole. He said.
At times, Mo felt like he didn't want to do that anymore. Mo felt like lying. and Mo hated lying especially to himself.
That's why he tried to pretend like an actor who played as a nice-shitty-sweet girl. The smile and body language were faked. And everyone got tricked.
At the end of the day, 3 other workers tried to get Ms. F. And she refused politely with a smile.
Mo never knew that kind of change would attract someone. He never thinks that Ms. F was an attractive person. Her smile wasn't a really heart-warming one. Her nose was too small Her eyes were a bit too small compared to her other family members Her round face didn't get any glint of cuteness The way she talked wasn't a special one Her feature wasn't fascinating at all.
but physically Mo and Ms. F are just the same. Was that the personality that changed people's attitude to her?
But Ms. F was a fake. She was an artificial personality that was created for the sake of gaining some money. Why did people choose to like a fake one rather than the real?
But at the end, Mo decides that acting and fool those people is kind of fun too. and now he's planning to take some advantage with it.
anyway, i finally submitted to University of Batam today, since i already recieved the letter that told me that i got the scholarship for Computer Engineering program. It's not the best university, but i can do nothing since i have no money to get to better univ ^^;It's also only for Diploma program, though
I'll be a university student soon!! =D please do pray for me to pass the national examination!
Tuhan itu memang baik yaaaa... disaat gw putus asa karena ga jadi submit ke NUS, dateng tawaran beasiswa yg biarpun dari universitas kelas 3, tapi lumayanlah untuk org yg ga punya duit buat masuk bahkan buat ke univ kaya gitu sekalipun.
Ms. F wore a red cheongsam blouse and black knee-lenght skirt at work. she smiled the nice and customized smile, she walked the way a 'girl' would walk, she talked softly and bowed politely to everyone she met. Ms. F was a girl, and maybe she will be 'is' oneday. While Mo hoped that she would just be a part of his dirty past.
Mo pretended like he was acting in a play on a big stage called Wedding Hall, a play for money. each time Ms. F smiled at someone, Mo would curse inwardly, calling them with every dirty word he could find in such small brain. each time Ms. F talked nicely to someone that Mo didn't really like, Mo would just keep on telling them how stupid they were for getting impressed with a fake character like Ms. F. And everytime someone seemed to try to go after Ms. F and asked for her cellphone number, Mo would just smirked and looked at them with such pity. wait until you find out the truth, asshole. He said.
At times, Mo felt like he didn't want to do that anymore. Mo felt like lying. and Mo hated lying especially to himself.
That's why he tried to pretend like an actor who played as a nice-shitty-sweet girl. The smile and body language were faked. And everyone got tricked.
At the end of the day, 3 other workers tried to get Ms. F. And she refused politely with a smile.
Mo never knew that kind of change would attract someone. He never thinks that Ms. F was an attractive person. Her smile wasn't a really heart-warming one. Her nose was too small Her eyes were a bit too small compared to her other family members Her round face didn't get any glint of cuteness The way she talked wasn't a special one Her feature wasn't fascinating at all.
but physically Mo and Ms. F are just the same. Was that the personality that changed people's attitude to her?
But Ms. F was a fake. She was an artificial personality that was created for the sake of gaining some money. Why did people choose to like a fake one rather than the real?
But at the end, Mo decides that acting and fool those people is kind of fun too. and now he's planning to take some advantage with it.
anyway, i finally submitted to University of Batam today, since i already recieved the letter that told me that i got the scholarship for Computer Engineering program. It's not the best university, but i can do nothing since i have no money to get to better univ ^^;It's also only for Diploma program, though
I'll be a university student soon!! =D please do pray for me to pass the national examination!
Tuhan itu memang baik yaaaa... disaat gw putus asa karena ga jadi submit ke NUS, dateng tawaran beasiswa yg biarpun dari universitas kelas 3, tapi lumayanlah untuk org yg ga punya duit buat masuk bahkan buat ke univ kaya gitu sekalipun.