So tonight is the opera. Joyous.

Then I am calling Jesse when I get home.

Sunday is Jeremiahs' 21st birthday party. Lasting till monday afternoon due to everyone drinking. My first time socially drinking. Hm thats gonna be interesting. I'm a lightweight!

UGH HE IS SUCH A FUCKING DOUCHEBAG! I SWEAR I COULD FUCKING KILL HIM. THE ONE THING THAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT TO ME AND HE SAID HE WOULD COME TO AND HE CANT FUCKING LEAVE HIS PRECIOUS WHORE FOR MORE THAN 4 HOURS TO SEE MY SHOW WHICH MEANS THE FUCKING WORLD OT ME. WHAT A FUCKING ASSHOLE. I HOPE HE DROWNS ( Read more... )

He was supposed to come to my show tomorrow. But he doesn't even have the decency to call me and tell me if he is going or not. What a fucking douchebag (ANTHONY BTW for anyone going "a whaaa?"). I'm sorry if calling me for a split second is going to interupt his little fucking 'playtime' with Nicole ( Read more... )

Well first off. I just have to say that my medicine needs to stop making me loopy while I'm on the phone with Jesse. Cause all mayhem breaks loose lmfao. I <3 him.

Here's 3 more songs to describe my feelings.

( Sad Songs- Matt Nathanson )

Hm. Maybe he still has some kind of feelings for me? Maybe it was just the fresh mountain air that posessed him to ask her out. A beautiful atmosphere messes with peoples minds. I know I would jump at a chance to enjoy beautiful scenery with a significant other.. even if I really didnt like them 100%. Or maybe that is just me. Beauty makes me feel ( Read more... )

Jesse makes me smile. Today was kindof wierd. After him saying how I'm interesting and stuff.... randomly he was like "I think I need a girlfriend. I'm lonely"... does that mean he was hinting at me? Or am I just entirly misinterperating that? I will never know. He has pictures of Dolores on his myspace now. 2 of them. And only 1 of me. I got mad ( Read more... )

In THe Words Of Jesse ( Read more... )

Goodbye may seem forever.
Farewell is like the end.
But in my heart is a memory,
and there you'll always be.Definatly describes how I feel. Yeah I know I'm corny. Quoting Disney Songs. But what can I say?. Every time I talk to him something in me just sparks. Gives me inspiration and makes me think long and hard about why I am in this position and ( Read more... )

so I dropped out of all of my summer classes because I missed 3 days since my mother wouldn't give me gas money ( Read more... )

I feel icky. The Anthony thing is just now constantly in my dreams. I dont know how to get rid of it ( Read more... )