BUST.
total bust.
blind bust.
fuck me for thinking otherwise.
& fuck this night for what it was. and for what it will be.

i will not cry tonight. i have learned from that.

but from him. i don't think...i will ever learn. ever.

ever.

i really do care for him, though.

have spent the past two plus hours watching Bridget Jones' Diary with my roomate, who actually liked it. which was surprising and cool. am now drunk, as i've had a couple of martinis. gotta sleep somehow.

fuck that cop. he won't leave me alone. he's Daniel cleaver. yep. must stay away from him, as i have sworn off men.

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i need john. right now. not friday. now.

so today, i worked both jobs. i decided to blow my roomate off, and hang out with a certain co-worker i fancy at his apartment. completely blew the fuck up right in front of my eyes, just like a movie or some shit. no joke. i thought, 'damn. what a fitting end to 2007- more fucked up shit that u bring upon yourself ( Read more... )

i think tonight might be the night.

thanksgiving was all about working, eating and looking forward to seeing good friends this weekend. i had an austrailan, kyle and some strange kid with a crazy ass beard in the living room last night. it was cool, but seriously, i can't take any more little people, big world. so sick of it. haha ( Read more... )

I seriously can't take any more paradise by the dashboard light. seriously.
so drunk. with black hair still. :/
boo.
but he's here.