I hate nights like this. They stand as a solid reminder that once, on nights like this, I had all these people that wanted to talk with me, and plot with me
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<-- have some Izumi-fuel :DcougarfangMay 31 2008, 05:23:13 UTC
IAWTC, especially this: Try to stop looking at yourself as reflected by your Depression and look at the You we try to reflect: it's a much prettier picture.
If you can't pump up your own self-esteem (a major problem I've had all my life) then you could do it by proxy. :)
I wish I was dead. I wonder if I'd then be forgiven for my sins.
Uh, dude. You've always seemed cool to me, so this disturbs me to see. You shouldn't be thinking about dying because you've pissed fandom off. First of all, people in fandom can hold grudges for way too long; if they're still mad at you, forget them. Second of all, I understand you're upset because you've lost friends, but everyone makes mistakes.
I know that you're depressed and not thinking clearly, having been there myself, but seriously. If all this is bothering you so much, maybe you should take a break from fandom.
It's the loss of some of my best friends that has me down, not reallly the fandom thing. Though knowing a chunk of fandom avoids me like the plague does sting a bit, it's really just icing on the cake.
That does suck. I'm sorry you're having so much trouble, but like I said, everyone makes mistakes? I hate to say anything because I don't know your situation, but I hate to see anyone so miserable over messing up with their friends. It happens to all of us, we all do terrible things to our friends sometimes, so you shouldn't beat yourself up over it so much.
Bahahaha, NOBODY in fandom talks to me anymore! Thank God I have a new fandom. I mean, what I'm saying is, fandom is gay, and if you're bummed about your best friends, that's one thing, but I found that the FMA fandom (which I'll arrogantly assume you're talking about here based on your icon) was a bunch of elitist fuckheads that expected you to submit to their hivemind. So good riddance, if that's the case.
(Ooh, wank!)
But if you want to talk about what's going on with your IRL friends, Kyt, we'll gladly listen. :) I went through the same thing recently, and it really does hurt. And it can take a lot to move past that. I'm here for you, though, and I think a lot of people on LJ are.
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Try to stop looking at yourself as reflected by your Depression and look at the You we try to reflect: it's a much prettier picture.
If you can't pump up your own self-esteem (a major problem I've had all my life) then you could do it by proxy. :)
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Uh, dude. You've always seemed cool to me, so this disturbs me to see. You shouldn't be thinking about dying because you've pissed fandom off. First of all, people in fandom can hold grudges for way too long; if they're still mad at you, forget them. Second of all, I understand you're upset because you've lost friends, but everyone makes mistakes.
I know that you're depressed and not thinking clearly, having been there myself, but seriously. If all this is bothering you so much, maybe you should take a break from fandom.
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(Ooh, wank!)
But if you want to talk about what's going on with your IRL friends, Kyt, we'll gladly listen. :) I went through the same thing recently, and it really does hurt. And it can take a lot to move past that. I'm here for you, though, and I think a lot of people on LJ are.
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