well i haven't written in this thing in quite a while so i thought i'd put something in that's nice. i feel like i'm finally past the stage where i feel like i'm needing something. i realized exactly what that was. i was missing a lot of friends. friends that i didn't have at the time yeah. friends that i did have but had lost. pretty much a real ( Read more... )

so i'm sitting here with an incredibly finicky mood. i can't entirely figure out what i want to do. i'm supposed to be sleeping but i just can't quite sleep. i have a "i want to do that" kind of mood but i can't figure out what that is. it's just outside my perception and i hate it when i can't figure out what it is. oh well. it's not like i can do ( Read more... )

kind of long for the point i was trying to make now that i think about it ( Read more... )

alright so it starts raining at 3:08 am today and i'm in a really crummy mood so i thought i'd go out for a walk. i'm walking along & a funny thought comes through my head. it scares the living hell out of me. it also requires a bit of a back story ( Read more... )

alright it's been a while since i've blogged at all. so here goes. what's been on my mind ( Read more... )

so aparently now i wake up at night & even better. i get creative. around 1 or 2 am, i'm really up. i have a hard time sleeping and i can really do some cool work. i wish it was during the day or something. i fixed my computer last night at 1 am. the night before i finished making the alucard desktop. tonight i want to do the stepfile for the gantz ( Read more... )

bah, so my computer keeps flipping out on me & restarting. i'm not even doing anything bad! i mean i can see if i'm lurking is some bad sights. i've gotten stuf simply by browsing through sites returned by google when searching "hacking basics." i should've wiki'ed it first... so now i have memory referencing other memory, nothing new or bad, but ( Read more... )

so here i am, sitting in my room with 20 minutes before i have to go to work. i haven't eaten anything yet today & it's past 3 pm. lots of stuf's happened in the last couple of weeks. i'm really not sure on how i'm going to sort it all out. i've had some life changing advice that really shouldn't be so life changing. i see things every so slightly ( Read more... )

well i thought that i would write a little bit in hopes that i might be able to save this day for later. i had a flipping awesome day today. fixed the microwave & the shower head without blowing up at my mom. she blew up at me once, but we got it done. so then i watched some stuf online & read some online comics and was really entertained. then ( Read more... )

i cried tonight. i haven't cried in a long long time. i can't entirely remember when the last time i've been able to cry is. it's nice being able to cry and just let out all of those feelings. it's a nice release. i haven't cried because i haven't had anything to cry about. i haven't had any one i could cry to. i know for those of you reading this ( Read more... )