For Fools, About Fools (Part 2)

Apr 07, 2012 02:05

Title: For Fools, About Fools (Part 2)
Pairings: Kyuwook
Chapter: Twoshot! (2/2)
Rating: G
Genre: Angst, Drama, Rivalry
Summary: Stupid. He is stupid and like every other idiot in this world, he doesn’t deserve happiness.


“I can’t go on, doctor,”

“Mr. Cho, I know you can, you need to let it all out, just tell me how exactly did you become a “fool” and I’ll help you change,” the doctor said trying to reassure me that he can of help.

Dr Zhoumi’s words sounded like mere lies to me. He’s only saying this because it’s his job, or that’s what I initially thought. But then he smiled and took my hand into his own, and that was when I saw how fake his smile is, he wasn’t happy, he was just as miserable as I am. The smile on his face was awfully similar to mine; it was the smile of a fool who’s in pain. It was the smile of a heartbroken person.

Could the reason why he’s a therapist for people who had just went through a break-up be this, could it be that he did not want anyone to feel what he’s feeling? All these questions were running wild in my mind, is the therapist hired to make me feel better, no better himself?

“Why are you looking at me that way, Mr. Cho?” he asked me, breaking me out of my trance. While trying to figure out the mystery behind this doctor, who’s smiles are obviously fake, I accidentally stared at him causing his cheeks to turn red, and mine too, once I realized what I had done.

“You smile a lot Doctor, but somehow when I’m here with you for you to help make me clever again, I feel as though you’re just like me,” I said to him, lying back down on the purple couch.

“What do you mean Mr. Cho?” he asked, flustered.

“You’re a fool too, and you’re hiding behind your notebook on which you write people’s problems in and that fake smile of yours, to convince people that you are actually clever. That’s the vibe you give off. Looking at you reminds me of me, you’re a fool too aren’t you? If you’re not one now, I can assure you that you’re about to be one. The signs are already there,” I said to him, he looked angry at first but then his frown turned into a smile as he close his notebook.

The room was silent for a few minutes as both Dr Zhoumi, who was now also lying down in his chair, and me stared at the ceiling.

“You’re the second person to call me a fool, my mom being the first,” he said, and despite not being able to see his face, it was obvious that tears were forming in his eyes as he uttered those words.

“You’re pretty clever for a fool, makes me doubt your intelligence level now,” Dr Zhou Mi said, trying to ease the tense mood.

“I wasn’t always a fool Doctor, haven’t I told you before? He made me a fool!” I said, suddenly feeling angry.

“Tell me more about what happened then, maybe then I can help increase your intelligence level, and perhaps learn from your mistakes and increase mine too,” he said, sitting back up and opening his book once again.

“Have I told you the fool’s name?”

“Yeah, it’s Kim Ryeowook,” he said after checking his notebook.

“Do you know who he is doc?”

“No, should I?”

I sat back up and glared at the doctor, how can he not know Kim Ryeowook. Everyone knows Kim Ryeowook and everyone should know who Kim Ryeowook is, even fools who don’t deserve the chance to love should.

“I’ll go on with my story and maybe then you’d know,” I said before finally continuing my story.

This fool worked with me for months, he was naïve and in love. He didn’t mine not getting his pay, being with me and making me happy was his priority.

I was disgusted with his loyalty to me, he was a mere toy, and a toy is the only thing fools are good for. You use them and once there’s something better in the market, you buy that and throw away the old toy.

Ryeowook was the toy; the problem was that I couldn’t find any better toys. Or maybe it was because I’ve grown to love this toy and despite all its flaws, it’s now the best toy in my eyes.

I didn’t realize that until I saw him and this girl he brought with him to my concert, they looked so close. I felt a feeling that I thought only fools were capable of feeling, I felt envious. I wanted to be that girl. I wanted to be the person he’ll hug, the person he can act like himself with.

I knew I was starting to turn into a fool from that very moment, so I grabbed his hand and dragged him to my dressing room. I told him to hold a camera and record me while smiling the biggest smile he’s capable of.

I watched the video and saw that I now had the same look in my eyes as the fool. However, I was neither said nor frustrated, but I was rather happy. I was now also a fool in love, but I didn’t care as long as he’d be a fool with me. I wanted to tell him the truth but my ego wouldn’t let me, I still had some intelligence left and wasn’t a complete fool at this point. Hence, that is why my ego level was above average, so I told him to leave and never come back because he had melted my ice-cold heart.

Being the fool he is, he couldn’t understand that what I really meant was “I love you so please don’t go,” and so he stood there looking at me with the most painful expression I’ve ever seen. A tear soon fell from his eyes, and soon I felt a sting on my face, the fool slapped me.

I was going to tell him the truth at this point because maybe my metaphors were too hard for a fool like him, but then he smiled and pulled me into a tight hug.

“I love you too, you fool,” Ryeowook said to me. The fool was calling me a fool and I didn’t mind at all, it was the first time someone called me a fool, and I’m glad it was Ryeowook.

I stopped being a singer after being with Ryeowook for 4 months and opened a restaurant with him, he was the cook and I was the manager/waiter/cashier, life was hard but fools don’t need much to be happy, and we were the happiest couple there is.

Despite being a fool, I was still a tad-bit clever, or so I thought. I missed singing, so I went to my old manager after a 2-year hiatus. She accepted me but treated me differently because I’m in love with a fool and am a fool myself.

It was my comeback interview at a variety show, I wanted to use the chance to prove that I’m not a fool and finally “redeem” my status. And that was when I made the biggest mistake in my life that turned me into the fool that I am now.

“We heard you left because you fell in love, now that you’re back, does that mean you’re single?” the host, Leeteuk asked jokingly.

“It wasn’t love, it was more like a short period of foolishness. Let’s just say I’m sane again now,” I said as I winked at the camera, the crowd roared as those words came out of my mouth, and everyone laughed too. I really felt clever again, but that feeling lasted for barely 5 minutes until I realized that Ryeowook is probably watching and being the fool that he is, took my words seriously.

I was right; I came back to our house and found Ryeowook gone. He left a note though, “Glad you’re sane again, it was nice knowing I’m part of the “short period of foolishness”. Hope everything will work out well and that you’ll be a successful singer, sorry you had to stop pursuing your dreams once because of me, I’m sincerely happy that you get to live them again,” those were the words he wrote, some of them were stained with his tears. He signed the letter with “Sincerely, the fool who was in love,” and just like that, the trust we had built for 2 years was destroyed.

I tried looking for him, I really did, but he disappeared, it was like he had never existed. I became so obsessed in my search for him that I forget about my duties as a singer, my schedules became hay wired, I missed my own concerts and soon I lost most of my fans. I was now no longer the Hallyu star “Cho Kyuhyun”, I’m just a has-been star.

That didn’t upset me though, the money I make from the restaurant I had built with Ryeowook was enough to support my daily expenses and my only purpose in life at the time was to find Ryeowook, so I made do with whatever I had, as long as I had enough money to look for him and pay the investigators, it was enough.

Around 2 or 3 years later, I saw Ryeowook again. He was on TV, it was his debut stage, he’s become a star, and he’s no longer the fool in love I used to know.

I tried every possible way to contact him, but I was a nobody and he’s a somebody, it’d be easier to meet Elton John that it’d be to meet him, that was how famous he is.

The opportunity did come though, it was a fansigning event for one of his albums, I can’t remember which one thugh. I think it’s the one that won the Guinness World Record for most albums sold in an hour, anyways, there were a lot of people in line and I was at the far back.

The fansinging event was scheduled to last for 2 hours but it had already been going on for 3, however my CD hasn’t been signed yet. There were 3 people in front of me and tons behind me, the bodyguards made their way towards us and told the person behind me that he’ll have to go for the next event because I’m the last person for this one as Ryeowook has to rush to his next schedule.

I stood in front of him and handed him my CD, he signed it and handed it back to me. He whispered a soft “thank you” before finally looking up to look at me. He looked surprise for a spit second, but he quickly regains his composure.

“Kyuhyun, you’re here?” he said as he extended his hand to me.

I looked at him, dumbfounded. The look in his eyes was gone, he actually looked clever now, I was the only fool in love. His eyes looked so cold, he’s changed and I was stunned. I didn’t know what to say and so I ran.

“That’s how I realized that I’ve turned into a complete fool and that I didn’t have the right to love, because fools are bound to make mistakes that’ll hurt those they love and I don’t want to take that risk,” I said to Dr Zhou Mi who had been writing everything I said to him in his notebook.

“Wow, you’re Kim Ryeowook’s ex. I never knew that,” he said, amazed.

“I told you from the beginning of the session, weren’t you listening?”

“I thought it was just some random guy, I didn’t know it was the “Kim Ryeowook”,” Dr Zhou Mi said, this time sounding more excited than before.

“It is, and I’m still in love with him doc. I know I shouldn’t cause I’m a fool and I’m bound to hurt him again, but I can’t help it,” images of Ryeowook flashed in my mind as I uttered those words as if to taunt me, telling me it’s too late.

“The reason why he’s like this, why he’s so cold-hearted, it’s because of me. I need to make him the bubbly Kim Ryeowook again, I need to amend my mistakes, and it’s the least I can do,” I said. Dr Zhou Mi looked at me with a sympathetic smile, but he didn’t say anything. I took it as him wanting me to say more, and so I did.

“But I’m no longer a superstar, I’m just a fool who owns a small restaurant, there’s no way I can even get close to him,” I said, reminding myself of the sad truth. Denying it would be easier, I’d be happier as I make all the plans to win back Ryeowook, but I’d eventually have to admit that it’s not possible, and the more hope I convince myself there is, the more hurt I’d get. So why wait and get hurt, might as well get hurt now and use the rest of my life to get over it.

“If you think there’s no hope, why did you come here to get my help then?” Dr Zhou Mi asked, a smirk slowly crept its way into his face. Why? I wasn’t sure at the time.

“To make me clever again?” I answered back, not sure of my own answer.

“That I can do, by the power invested in me by the professors at the medic school, I now proclaim you as an intelligent young man,” he said as he tapped his book on my head.

“Do you think it’s that easy? It doesn’t work that way doc, I might be a fool but I did go to school. Do you think this is a joke?” my pain was being treated as a joke by this person who’s supposed to heal me, I was not furious, just disappointed.

“The fact that you think there’s such thing as fools and clever people in the world is a joke worthy thing Kyuhyun. God made everyone equal, yes, we do make mistakes, but no one is a fool. Everyone deserves the right to love, everyone hurts those they love, and it’s part of life. Maybe you’re a fool, but only because you believe there’s such a thing as fools!”

“I….”

“Shut up and let me speak. I’ve made mistakes, been hurt and have hurt people, but that doesn’t make me a fool. I can still correct those mistakes, well maybe I am because I’m still sitting here with you when I can go correct it right now, but I still can correct it and yes there are some mistakes that you can’t correct, but everything happens for a reason, believe in that and trust me you’ll get through life,” Dr Zhou Mi finally finished his speech, and inhaled deeply, before he finally calmed down.

“So you’re saying that I was never a fool to begin with?”

“Yup,” he said, rubbing his forehead, clearly frustrated.

“I’ll probably get sued for telling you this and breaching my confidentiality agreement, but Kim Ryeowook is my patient. He talks a lot about you a lot, here’s his number,” the doctor said, as he gave me a piece of paper with Ryeowook’s number on it.

“You two fools should really talk, and please, no running away this time, and the eyes can tell a lot about a person but so can the mouth, so stop looking at the eyes and jumping to conclusions,” he said, his words were hurtful, but they were true, and it made me more calm somehow.

“Get out and go fight for your love or whatever, btw call my assistant in while you’re on your way out, I think I need to go back and talk to my partner, no hard feeling but I don’t think I want to end up like you and that boyfriend of yours,” Dr Zhou Mi said as he put on his coat.

I was about to playfully throw the pillow that was on the floor at him, but then he told me something I’d never forget.

“You taught me something valuable today, you taught me that if it’s meant to be, it’s meant to be and talking something out, despite how simple that sounds can be the solution to major problems. Thank you, I’ll forever be grateful and my service is free by the way, you’ve helped me more than I’ve helped you,” he said before closing the door to his office.

I was planning to wait until I reach home to call Ryeowook, but nothing good ever comes out of procrastinating, and so right there at the hospital, I took my phone and dialed his number.

“Hello, may I know who’s speaking?” the voice on the other line said.

Tears streamed down my face as I heard Ryeowook’s voice, it was so pure, just like before.

“How have you been, you fool?” I asked him in between sobs, he laughed at first but then I could hear sounds of soft sobs, he was crying too.

“Nothing much, I miss you though,” he said in between sobs.

“Let’s meet then,” I said, not hoping he’d say yes.

“Why not?”

“When?”

“Now,” he said, and just like that, years of agony and waiting seemed worthwhile.

“Let’s meet at my, I mean our restaurant, see you there,” I said before I hung up.

The meeting was brief, but meaningful. Promises were made, and old scars were finally healed. A happy ending is still far from happening, but there’s hope now. Perhaps there was really no such thing as fools and clever people, but even if there is, it doesn’t matter anymore, because as long as I have him, I don’t mind being either.

A/N : I hope you've enjoyed the story. Thank you so much for those who read and/or commented on the previous chapter. I'll try to improve the quality of my fics, till then, see you all later and thanks for reading :)
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