gah gah. gah!
lets be emo....
god only knows i have my reasons to be.
i hate my mom. i can't stand her. she doesn't like me at all. she just hates me. she thinks i cant do anything right. she thinks that im a hopeless failure. she's mad at me because im always talking to scott. its not my fault that we like eachother. okay, you cant stop two people from liking eachother. its the whole romeo&juliette thing. you try to make them stop, and guess what happens. they commit suicide. im not saying that i would do that over anyone, im just saying that it makes a person want to rebel more.
then she's so naive. she wants me to just focus on school. not to work, have friends, no boyfriend, nothing but school. i mean, who the hell actually only focuses on school. there is no way in hell any person could only be about school. cause honestly everyone has something else going for them. and like, she wants me to go to college. nothing then. she gets pissed off if i have any extra-curriculars or i volunteer, but that is what i need to get into a good college you know? so how the hell does she expect me to get into a four year university when she wont even let me meet all the requirements. she just wants the grades, she doesn't understand that colleges are looking for more than just grades. and even if i get into a college. i cant do anything then. she doesnt want me to work, because she wants me to focus on my classes. she doesn't want me to have any friends, cause that will take time out of studying. she definately wont let me have a boyfriend, because that would just screw me over. so what the hell? when am i going to be allowed to grow up? after college? i dont think so either. she wants me to get into a career, get high up on that ladder. become a president of some company. and in order to do that, am i allowed to have a life? no, i cant, she wants me to spend all my time and energy into that career that she will finally let me have once i graduate from college. any friends? no. any boys? no. she says she wants me to get married one day, but when will that day come? when im dead? dead from not having a life? gosh.
thanks mom. for all the stupid bullshit you have put me through, and are going to.
i just wish i could grow up now. maybe leave. go away from all the stupid troubles that i have. gah!
god only knows i have my reasons to be.
i hate my mom. i can't stand her. she doesn't like me at all. she just hates me. she thinks i cant do anything right. she thinks that im a hopeless failure. she's mad at me because im always talking to scott. its not my fault that we like eachother. okay, you cant stop two people from liking eachother. its the whole romeo&juliette thing. you try to make them stop, and guess what happens. they commit suicide. im not saying that i would do that over anyone, im just saying that it makes a person want to rebel more.
then she's so naive. she wants me to just focus on school. not to work, have friends, no boyfriend, nothing but school. i mean, who the hell actually only focuses on school. there is no way in hell any person could only be about school. cause honestly everyone has something else going for them. and like, she wants me to go to college. nothing then. she gets pissed off if i have any extra-curriculars or i volunteer, but that is what i need to get into a good college you know? so how the hell does she expect me to get into a four year university when she wont even let me meet all the requirements. she just wants the grades, she doesn't understand that colleges are looking for more than just grades. and even if i get into a college. i cant do anything then. she doesnt want me to work, because she wants me to focus on my classes. she doesn't want me to have any friends, cause that will take time out of studying. she definately wont let me have a boyfriend, because that would just screw me over. so what the hell? when am i going to be allowed to grow up? after college? i dont think so either. she wants me to get into a career, get high up on that ladder. become a president of some company. and in order to do that, am i allowed to have a life? no, i cant, she wants me to spend all my time and energy into that career that she will finally let me have once i graduate from college. any friends? no. any boys? no. she says she wants me to get married one day, but when will that day come? when im dead? dead from not having a life? gosh.
thanks mom. for all the stupid bullshit you have put me through, and are going to.
i just wish i could grow up now. maybe leave. go away from all the stupid troubles that i have. gah!