i want to go to the city and feel christmas the way its supposed to be. fuck presents, dead serious NO ONE GET ME ANYTHING THIS YEAR im sick of presents taking over christmas, to me christmas isn't a day, its a feeling, and i've been feeling it since tuesday ( Read more... )

i dont want to be this person anymore. i dont want to be the one they all see as the controlling girlfriend. i dont want to be the reason he's not friends with laurence anymore. i dont want to be the one who sits in the background and cringes every time a girl talks to him ( Read more... )

shit i had a whole entry copied but then i copied something else forgetting about the entry so i didnt get to paste it... so i'll skip the part about my dad and the whore adds for my x-aunt deb aka bitch from hell

today was an amazing day, i missed rich so much, also found out that me and miss satiago (sp?) have the same b-day, so yay for ( Read more... )

i realized that my last entry didnt fit the bitchy factor the way i hoped it would, and im sick of keeping everything locked inside of me cuz thats whats getting me depressed. kelly, okay im your best friend and i know friends are supposed to be honest with eachother, but i feel like you're trying to convince me that my life is the worst it could ( Read more... )

first things first, most of you, all 5 of you who read my journal, are prolly wondering if things are okay with me and rich, well that depends on what yer definition of okay is, if you're wondering if we're going back out, im sorry to say the answer is no, if you mean are we tlaking again, yes we are, we're actually really close again, i think, it ( Read more... )

so today i find out that rich pretty much never wants to talk to me again, or thats how he made it sound atleast... here's what happened, friday when i stayed home i cleaned out my room of everything that reminded me of him, cuz when i walked in the room i broke down in tears, i put it all in a box, and yesterday i gave it to him... actually ( Read more... )

this is going to be a long ass entry so prepare yourselves ( Read more... )

yah so most of you know, rich broke uyp with me, i didnt go to any classes but chorus today, i didnt feel like having teachers make me leave, i couldn't stop crying, jess thanks for being there for me, and to all of you who i blew up at today, which is a lot of you im sorry, gbut im just so fucking lost and i cant take it, i think that if i hadn't ( Read more... )

im scared, im so fricken scared, that he lost whatever it was that drove him to me, like he lost any atraction to me that he once had, today he was having trouble breathing cuz he got punched in the chest a thousand times at the concert, like at the beginging of fifth and then i kept asking him if he was okay and he said he was fine and that he was ( Read more... )

so yesterday was mine and rich's 6 month aniversary, so i was sposed to go with him to jersey to a party with his moms side of the family, and i slept over jess's house friday so my mom picked me up there and was gunna drive me to rich's and then we'd go, so my mom picks me up and starts bitching at me about how she duzint want yeti to drive me cuz ( Read more... )