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A conversation with Azazer...
SphereScrty: Lias?
xlias is sadx: Yes Azazer..?
SphereScrty: This is probably an obvious question.. But are you all right?
xlias is sadx: I.....I don't know.
SphereScrty: I apologize, I couldn't help but overhear the argument you had with Sophia...
xlias is sadx: I.....I........-starts crying-.....A-am I selfish, Azazer?
SphereScrty: No, of course not. I've told you that before.
xlias is sadx: I....I just don't know what to do anymore!!
SphereScrty: But now that the war's been.. Er.. Cancelled, per se, can't you just go back to Mackwell?
xlias is sadx: ....Our marrage has been failing for awhile, Azazer......with my condision I....I can't keep on the way I've been going....I.........we.....-falls to his knees- Everything was so clean cut for awhile, but then....all of a sudden I realize....things just arn't working out and and....I start to wonder if I could've done something to change the way things are, or if it was my fault, i was to hasty or.....I just....-hiccup-
SphereScrty: -kneels down next to him- It can't be completely your fault, Lias. I think you've been really strong, from what I've seen. Especially with your.. Um. Son.
xlias is sadx: I....I know....but..........there's nothing I can do now....I know...but I....I don't want to....I'm such a child......
SphereScrty: Don't say that. -rubs his back consolingly- At least you're around. I can hardly remember the last time I saw Mackwell before he claimed his side in the war.
xlias is sadx: -calms down a little- I....I just don't know how the function anymore....I've always needed someone....and for the longest time I've had him...but now....
SphereScrty: I'd like to help you more, but as I've only just recently gotten a lover myself, I'd be afraid to give you bad advice.
xlias is sadx: I'ts okay....there's no way to repair this....
Azazer........I don't think I'll make it....
SphereScrty: -leans in closer to hear him- What do you mean..?
xlias is sadx: In life....I can't stand it....I can't keep my food down...I can't sleep.....I don't function....-hiccup-
SphereScrty: I think... Perhaps you should see someone? I wouldn't reccoment Muraki or Ms. Leingod.. From what I hear they harm more than they help. But, if we land somewhere else soon, maybe... You can't go on suffering like this, Lias!
xlias is sadx: Oh.....Azazer....you shouldn't worry about me....
SphereScrty: Why not? I told you that you're one of the closest friends I've ever had, and no one deserves this.. You least of all.
xlias is sadx: -smiles sadly- I......don't know what to say...
SphereScrty: You don't have to say anything.
xlias is sadx: -smiles- -hiccups-
SphereScrty: Just promise me you won't give up. There are too many people here that'd miss you.
xlias is sadx: Do you really think so?
SphereScrty: Yes, I do.
xlias is sadx: I....I'll try my best not to give up....Azazer......thank you...thank you..for listening to me...
SphereScrty: -smiles lightly- You're welcome. Don't ever hesitate to come see me in the future if you need someone to talk to.
xlias is sadx: O-okay....-smile-
SphereScrty: -ruffles his hair some- Good.
xlias is sadx: Heh....^^
SphereScrty: So what do you think will happen now that we're not going to feud? -leans against the wall-
xlias is sadx: -sits up a bit- ...I don't know....really...
SphereScrty: -sighs- Such a strange group we're stuck with.....
xlias is sadx: I know....ugh...I'm glad I have a few friends though...
SphereScrty: Heh, as do I.
xlias is sadx: ...wonder what will happen........I really don't think it'll stay this peaceful for long...
SphereScrty: You're right. It never does.
xlias is sadx: ~__~ .....wonder who'll start it this time...
SphereScrty: Hard to say.. But I admit I'm not innocent when it comes to starting things..
xlias is sadx: Well, neither am I...but I'd go for the inqisitor...now that he's back...>__>
SphereScrty: ... True. I can't say I'm happy that he's returned.
xlias is sadx: Yeah...well.....he's one of the only people who get along with my son so......-sigh-
xlias is sadx: >~~>
SphereScrty: Oh.. That's right. I.. Hadn't thought of that.
xlias is sadx: Heh....
xlias is sadx: yeah...
SphereScrty: No offense, Lias, because I know you love him as a parent should... But you deserve better.
xlias is sadx: .....I...I can't help but love him....
xlias is sadx: And it's not like I'm totally innocent....it's partally my fault he's this way...
SphereScrty: He's told me that too, but I don't believe it.
xlias is sadx: Why not? I totally neglected him.
SphereScrty: But it isn't your fault it turned him crazy.
xlias is sadx: It's not his either....no one's to blame for that.
SphereScrty: If anything I'd say Biwig and the Inquisitor did that.
xlias is sadx: Well...that's kind of true...but we can't do anything about it now...
SphereScrty: ... True. I'm sorry for bringing it up.
xlias is sadx: It's okay. It's not your fault.
SphereScrty: -sighs- Ah well. What can you do..
xlias is sadx: yeah....
SphereScrty: Lias?
xlias is sadx: Yes Azazer..?
SphereScrty: This is probably an obvious question.. But are you all right?
xlias is sadx: I.....I don't know.
SphereScrty: I apologize, I couldn't help but overhear the argument you had with Sophia...
xlias is sadx: I.....I........-starts crying-.....A-am I selfish, Azazer?
SphereScrty: No, of course not. I've told you that before.
xlias is sadx: I....I just don't know what to do anymore!!
SphereScrty: But now that the war's been.. Er.. Cancelled, per se, can't you just go back to Mackwell?
xlias is sadx: ....Our marrage has been failing for awhile, Azazer......with my condision I....I can't keep on the way I've been going....I.........we.....-falls to his knees- Everything was so clean cut for awhile, but then....all of a sudden I realize....things just arn't working out and and....I start to wonder if I could've done something to change the way things are, or if it was my fault, i was to hasty or.....I just....-hiccup-
SphereScrty: -kneels down next to him- It can't be completely your fault, Lias. I think you've been really strong, from what I've seen. Especially with your.. Um. Son.
xlias is sadx: I....I know....but..........there's nothing I can do now....I know...but I....I don't want to....I'm such a child......
SphereScrty: Don't say that. -rubs his back consolingly- At least you're around. I can hardly remember the last time I saw Mackwell before he claimed his side in the war.
xlias is sadx: -calms down a little- I....I just don't know how the function anymore....I've always needed someone....and for the longest time I've had him...but now....
SphereScrty: I'd like to help you more, but as I've only just recently gotten a lover myself, I'd be afraid to give you bad advice.
xlias is sadx: I'ts okay....there's no way to repair this....
Azazer........I don't think I'll make it....
SphereScrty: -leans in closer to hear him- What do you mean..?
xlias is sadx: In life....I can't stand it....I can't keep my food down...I can't sleep.....I don't function....-hiccup-
SphereScrty: I think... Perhaps you should see someone? I wouldn't reccoment Muraki or Ms. Leingod.. From what I hear they harm more than they help. But, if we land somewhere else soon, maybe... You can't go on suffering like this, Lias!
xlias is sadx: Oh.....Azazer....you shouldn't worry about me....
SphereScrty: Why not? I told you that you're one of the closest friends I've ever had, and no one deserves this.. You least of all.
xlias is sadx: -smiles sadly- I......don't know what to say...
SphereScrty: You don't have to say anything.
xlias is sadx: -smiles- -hiccups-
SphereScrty: Just promise me you won't give up. There are too many people here that'd miss you.
xlias is sadx: Do you really think so?
SphereScrty: Yes, I do.
xlias is sadx: I....I'll try my best not to give up....Azazer......thank you...thank you..for listening to me...
SphereScrty: -smiles lightly- You're welcome. Don't ever hesitate to come see me in the future if you need someone to talk to.
xlias is sadx: O-okay....-smile-
SphereScrty: -ruffles his hair some- Good.
xlias is sadx: Heh....^^
SphereScrty: So what do you think will happen now that we're not going to feud? -leans against the wall-
xlias is sadx: -sits up a bit- ...I don't know....really...
SphereScrty: -sighs- Such a strange group we're stuck with.....
xlias is sadx: I know....ugh...I'm glad I have a few friends though...
SphereScrty: Heh, as do I.
xlias is sadx: ...wonder what will happen........I really don't think it'll stay this peaceful for long...
SphereScrty: You're right. It never does.
xlias is sadx: ~__~ .....wonder who'll start it this time...
SphereScrty: Hard to say.. But I admit I'm not innocent when it comes to starting things..
xlias is sadx: Well, neither am I...but I'd go for the inqisitor...now that he's back...>__>
SphereScrty: ... True. I can't say I'm happy that he's returned.
xlias is sadx: Yeah...well.....he's one of the only people who get along with my son so......-sigh-
xlias is sadx: >~~>
SphereScrty: Oh.. That's right. I.. Hadn't thought of that.
xlias is sadx: Heh....
xlias is sadx: yeah...
SphereScrty: No offense, Lias, because I know you love him as a parent should... But you deserve better.
xlias is sadx: .....I...I can't help but love him....
xlias is sadx: And it's not like I'm totally innocent....it's partally my fault he's this way...
SphereScrty: He's told me that too, but I don't believe it.
xlias is sadx: Why not? I totally neglected him.
SphereScrty: But it isn't your fault it turned him crazy.
xlias is sadx: It's not his either....no one's to blame for that.
SphereScrty: If anything I'd say Biwig and the Inquisitor did that.
xlias is sadx: Well...that's kind of true...but we can't do anything about it now...
SphereScrty: ... True. I'm sorry for bringing it up.
xlias is sadx: It's okay. It's not your fault.
SphereScrty: -sighs- Ah well. What can you do..
xlias is sadx: yeah....