Private Charm
Gods, I woke up early last night, my body aching with what I thought had been lovemaking, but I don't know. I reached for . . . him, but he was not there. I can still feel the empty sadness that took hold once I discovered I was alone. It was as though someone had taken every ounce of warmth from me. I continued the night that way, sadness finally covering me in a pall, drawing me into slumber. Waking this morning I was once again befallen by the dream I had last night, it was wonderful.
I dare not think of what I shall do when I see him tonight. Lord give me strength indeed.