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[la_fae_existenz]

sometimes i have the need to hide from everything outside of my little space called home. I keep my head down do my work and call it surviving. at other times, though, i can't help feel that i am wasting time. that there should be something that i am doing. like being involved in people around me or creating something that brings others joy and

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[endymion23]

"but how does one get involved in the creation of joy on this sort of scale? or even on a small scale."

i know its gonna sound trite, and youve undoubtedly heard it before, but the small scale is where you start. really small scale. YOU. although its possible to create joy in others without having your own joy, thats never going to help YOU out in the long run. learn how to bring happiness into your life WHENEVER YOU CAN and you will usually find other jouyous people all over. AND things start working out better (or at least seem to, which can be just as important) when you start appreciating life's quarks as opposed to criticizing or avoiding them. well at least thats how ive been living and believing lately, and it seems to be helping alot.

as far as energy: well first off, when your happier (i dont mean just moderetly content but truly exuberant) energy often comes of its own accord. also ive found that keeping persistantly hydrated, always taking water with you, helps a little

[twitcht6895]

You could start by hanging out with me and scott tonight? :P (only if you want to)
I think fulfillmment and joy comes from purpose. To devote oneself to a purpose (any purpose), and see to see it working, creates some joy. Depends all on where you want to focus yourself. You could make (seemingly pointless?) goals: learn how to move your pinky independantly, or to read a certain number of books, or to write a star on every peice of homework. You could meditate? You could make someones day:) Whatever you want. I actually tend to disagree with the above (no offence endymion23). I've found focusing to much on myself kind of removes purpose and makes me realize how little I want or need except that fulfillment. which makes me waste money time and energy, and usually starts a cycle of depression. Not to say that you should do anything other than take care of yourself, but when you make someone eslse smile (telling jokes or tickeling works) you can share that. Maybe we should make a mission! like folding 999 origami cranes.

[ariadne]

I can't seem to formulate what I want to say, but I understand this feeling well. Since I'm having trouble finding the right words we should talk. Err, well, we should talk anyway, but you know what I mean (I hope!). Consider yourself hugged in the meantime.

[la_fae_existenz]

no i am not talking to you :P well i guess until you read this or i see you. but i would love to go to coffee or get a meal sometime. that would be swell. hugs and what nots. see you probably tomorrow.