I feel empty and cold. and sick and dizzy and tired. emotionally and mentally. I think I should see a psychologist. I feel very sick and tired ( Read more... )

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I'm glad brittany stayed up so late. I like talkin to her late. Al and I have been discussing the new motion Destroyed By Fire might be taking. I'm excited about a change. Possibly a post-rock/post-punk movement. That would be interesting. I think it would be cool to add a piano or keyboard to the band, but I like our line up. It's great. maybe mix ( Read more... )

Today is my mom's birthday. I woke up at about 11:30 and called Al to tell him about not having practice today and he told me he didn't feel like rehearsing anyway. We did need a little break. I called my mom at work to tell her happy birthday, but she wasn't there so i just left a message. I then called Brittany a few times to wake her up, but I ( Read more... )

well, saturday i typed up a pretty nicely large sized entry, then aol froze before i could update. damn america online to hell. oh well...i didn't and still dont feel like typing about thursday and friday. so, saturday will and joey came over after i had talked to them and brittany over the phone for quite a while. Will made me this great mix cd ( Read more... )

Last night was incredible. We played toys and a really good set. we didnt do as bad as i thought we would. Brittany sat behind me when we played. it was really cool. and joey and al did very well, and it was so much fun to play a gig again. at toys, too. i got complimented on the way i sang "Friends." Haha! what a crock. that songs a piece of shit ( Read more... )

well, here we go. i'm dreaming and updating. sleeping and typing. thats it. i'm deliruss. brittany insisted on me to update. i was in the middle of one earlier, but my computer froze. hey! that's something new! my computer freezes now. like it always has. bastard fucking cunt. i hate this damned thing. burn baby burn. and i hate pop ups. i'm giong ( Read more... )

with the sounds of the ocean crashing seven-thirty friday evening everything comes tumbling down i choke back each tear that bleeds i'd rather rest forever in your arms i'd rather stay here than go but i know that i should leave as i sit here helpless dont go you said you wouldnt' you said you couldn't i think of our time together is it fading am i ( Read more... )

dormant.

brittany petre is the most beautiful girl in the world. EVER.

hopin we do surveys tonight.

i'll talk about today i guess since i dont remember yesterday except that brittany and i had a disagreement over the fone and all. but it's ok. i'm glad we work things out. she really rocks. we both do. i fixed my computer yesterday too. ok. fuck yesterday. i wanna talk about today. so, i woke up at 7:15 for work and all that bullshit. work was so ( Read more... )