Dreams
And I'm not talking about the ones in your sleep. I'm talking about the ones you stay up all night thinking about.
Lately I've been thinking about my future and what I want to do with my life. Unfortunately, I've been having second thoughts about everything. You see, I'm currently a sophomore taking up my pre-med course and I took up this course deciding I wanted to become a doctor. I still do actually, it's just that I really really want to do something as well.
I want to dance.
Now, I already do dance. In fact, I tell people I do and I'm proud of it. But I've never been part of a team or really trained or anything. I've taken up a few workshops and took it for my PE (twice) but that's pretty much it. So what's my problem you say? Well, I really want to get out there and do something but I'm not really sure how. I have a few friends who are really great dancers too and they've already joined their university's respective streetdance teams but I don't know if I should too. A part of me is telling me that I shouldn't; that it'll pull down my grades or I won't be able to manage all my time. A part of me is telling me that I should focus on acads and getting into Med school. Ironically, that friend of mine who also likes to dance is also on her way to Med school...although she's much much smarter than me (and much better at dancing too). I can't use my friends as reference since they've been dancing (and winning mind you) ever since high school and I'm just...me.
A lot of my feelings are coming from watching all these great dancers on TV and social media. They really inspire me and I wanna be like them. I think it's amazing how they can wake up and decide that this is for them. I wonder how can they just do what they do and not worry about it (or maybe they do). How do you know if it's right for you? I just want to enjoy dancing and become better at it. I can't help but wonder what it would be like if I pursued this.
I guess I'm just scared about taking that risk. At the same time, I can't help but feel that if I don't do anything, it'll be too late. I'm just so intimidated by all these talented people and I just don't think I'm good enough. Joining the streetdance team feels like too much pressure since they're so good. And attending workshops and classes also requires a lot of money. But I can't just sit here and do nothing. I just don't know what to do to resolve this cognitive dissonance.
Dance is my dream. But I don't know how to reach it.
Lately I've been thinking about my future and what I want to do with my life. Unfortunately, I've been having second thoughts about everything. You see, I'm currently a sophomore taking up my pre-med course and I took up this course deciding I wanted to become a doctor. I still do actually, it's just that I really really want to do something as well.
I want to dance.
Now, I already do dance. In fact, I tell people I do and I'm proud of it. But I've never been part of a team or really trained or anything. I've taken up a few workshops and took it for my PE (twice) but that's pretty much it. So what's my problem you say? Well, I really want to get out there and do something but I'm not really sure how. I have a few friends who are really great dancers too and they've already joined their university's respective streetdance teams but I don't know if I should too. A part of me is telling me that I shouldn't; that it'll pull down my grades or I won't be able to manage all my time. A part of me is telling me that I should focus on acads and getting into Med school. Ironically, that friend of mine who also likes to dance is also on her way to Med school...although she's much much smarter than me (and much better at dancing too). I can't use my friends as reference since they've been dancing (and winning mind you) ever since high school and I'm just...me.
A lot of my feelings are coming from watching all these great dancers on TV and social media. They really inspire me and I wanna be like them. I think it's amazing how they can wake up and decide that this is for them. I wonder how can they just do what they do and not worry about it (or maybe they do). How do you know if it's right for you? I just want to enjoy dancing and become better at it. I can't help but wonder what it would be like if I pursued this.
I guess I'm just scared about taking that risk. At the same time, I can't help but feel that if I don't do anything, it'll be too late. I'm just so intimidated by all these talented people and I just don't think I'm good enough. Joining the streetdance team feels like too much pressure since they're so good. And attending workshops and classes also requires a lot of money. But I can't just sit here and do nothing. I just don't know what to do to resolve this cognitive dissonance.
Dance is my dream. But I don't know how to reach it.