I am a stupid stupid girl. I am a stupid stupid girl. I never cease to amaze myself at how annoying, paranoid and silly i can be. I really really need to chill the fuck out. I really hope i haven't pissed anyone ( Jake) off with my being pointless. This post was lame. I'm sorry.

AHHH work. My neck is still fucked and i have sooo much work i have given up on breaks and i still can't get it all done before France even if i filed 24/7. ick. It was better today due to a lack of 10-year-old boys helping me. I get so much more done alone with a book on tape at my desk then i do running around after Nick and arguing over ( Read more... )

I really want to update this more. The problem is i can't update from work because Livejournal is oh so very dangerous and scary according to school districts. blah.

I should be at the Slaughterhouse Slam tonight. or with Jake or something. Instead people are coming over for expensive salmon and hours of cards. i should go get dressed for that. Night.

Today was pretty decent. I decided that due to stress and a messed neck i would take the day off. That and i really didn't want to go to the funeral ( Read more... )

I feel like I owe all of you a real post that is more then 10 words and not incredibly cryptic/emo ( Read more... )

I'm crying again. I really need to stop doing that.

I feel disgusting. I just was lamenting how ugly i look in a swimsuit and followed it up with a cookie. I am sick and wrong. Tomorrow i will start my diet in earnest. I'll go for a run, i'll clean my room, i won't drink any soda or eat any sugar. i'm throwing out all the cookies. Maybe feeling pretty will console me.

Today was one of those days where my mom and I spend way to much money, but it was totally worth it because it was all stuff we need for FRANCE! I got a dress and a scarf and shoes and books. it was all very nice, I'll post pretty pictures later but for now i am going to go see Paris Je T'aime at the Mayan and thank god that i am no longer the ( Read more... )

I'm, Nervous, Jealous, Hella excited , freaking out and many other combinations thereof. I would feel better if it wasn't 6:30 am and people were awake to calm me. I have a legitimate reason to be worried, but i still should calm down.

first day of work, here i come. if only all of this related to you.