I feel like all this stuff has hit me at once ( Read more... )

I've spent 4-10 hours in the library every day for the past week. The last two nights I barely got any sleep. School is killing me ( Read more... )

I've been in this depression for the past 5 days or so. I keep telling myself to snap out of it, but I can't. I just can't get myself to smile and be happy. I currently get nothing out of life. No highs, no excitement, just routine ( Read more... )

Something really exciting happened to me yesterday. I'm curious to see what's all going to come of this ( Read more... )

What the heck is going on with her? She's having a breakdown.

I wish I knew where my Britney Spears greatest hits cd was. That girl definitely needs some redemption. Good thing I have some Britney mp3's.

Listening to classic Britney songs helps me get through this tough time. Beyond the mess she is now are some good songs.

Got back from a several day visit to SD to see my family. I think it's crazy that after all of these years away at college I still get homesick. I feel so alone in LA sometimes.

When I was eating lunch today, there was a couple also in the restaurant. They were about my age. The guy was a tall, cute white guy and the girl was an asian girl. There was a lot of pda (public displays of affection) going on. I found myself really jealous and began to wonder if I was jealous of the fact that he was white and she was asian or ( Read more... )

I want to want male affection.

That is all.

I've decided that the fetish is still there, I'm just not acting on it like I did for the past 5 years ( Read more... )

I'm torn.

And, I miss a lot of things about how I used to be.

Or maybe it's me wanting to hold on to the past and wishing I was still that way.

Change can be good, right?

I think one of the most prominent fetishes I've ever had may be over...