Fine. I'm an asshole, ok. I'm a really big fucking asshole. I tried to do what was right and still screwed everything up. What the fucking hell. God damnit. I can never do anything right. Now Diana's pissed as hell at me and I feel even worse than I already did. It's not like I meant to hurt her or play with her emotions, but what the hell ( Read more... )

I feel like writing, but I’ve got nothing to write about. Oh, kitty. Pretty kitty. Pretty mean kitty. Ow, no biting. Stupid cat. Oh… sad kitty eyes. OW! God damnit. Stupid cat, now I’m bleeding ( Read more... )

I wish I could just forget you. I wish I could forget her too. And then I wish you would both forget me. That way no one would get hurt. Even if it as only you and her who forgot at least then I would be the only one who got hurt. I’d be alone again. I don’t want to be alone. I’d rather be alone than hurt someone though. I don’t want to ( Read more... )

Oh ya, I bought some books today.

Confucius
The Tao
The Tarot Directory
GTO Vol. 18
The Art of War

Yeah, still feeling really depressed for some reason. Oh, that’s a friggin’ lie, I know exactly why I’m feeling depressed, but I’m not discussing it because of people who read this. Oh well ( Read more... )

Okay, so Diana says I have to update my Journal more often even though I have nothing going on in my life. I don’t see why she really cares. It’s not like anyone besides her ever even reads it, and it isn’t like she can’t just IM me anytime she feels like it, because I’m like never on line. Wow, if only I was better at conveying sarcasm in my ( Read more... )

Man, I feel really lonely. It really sucks having a girlfriend who’s separated from you by an entire mountain range.