...for your cool and forgotten flip-flops if nothing else.

I've run out of ways to impress myself.

I wish I was really excellent in just one aspect of life. If only I could trully master something [anything], maybe it could do all the talking for me. I've grown increasingly tired of the endless tripping-over of my words, scrounging for sentences to fill awkward voids ( Read more... )

You will. You? Will. You? Will. You? Will. You? Will. You? Will. You? Will.
You? Will. You? Will. You? Will. You? Will. You? Will. You? Will. You? Will.
Because if you don't, then this book is all lies. If you don't, then my plans would all be ruined.
If you don't, I'll start drinking like the way I drank before.
And I just wont have a future

I think that "giving up" will be the general theme for my first mental breakdown/ major life crisis. I'm excited about the possibilities of such a hiatus. Maybe I'm just sincerely tired right now, and any rest is called for in my life.

Must stay conscious for just a few more hours...

The people that I love are as gone as my cognitive abilities. I long for the life I've left behind. I run headfirst into the person I still wish I was. I struggle with disposition, decisions, dedication. Under the weight of a seemingly unrequited schoolboy crush, I think I may crumble.

Tonight was amazing. I love everyone who came out to see me tonight, though am saddened by those who didn't ( Read more... )

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I'm so very lonely.

I realize that I could probably live without anyone in the world.
(...but don't I thirst for companionship?)

School starts, and then it ends, and then it starts again elswhere. Changes things up abit.

I'm a vain, self-loathing, hideous person with no regard for the rest of existance. And a cotradicting idealist at

The water I let get blistering hot ( Read more... )