stolen from allyjumpup

[lackofcharm]

So let's have it. The good, the bad, and the viciously mean. Whatever you want to say to me, but couldn't until now.

Post anything that you want (in comments), and post it anonymously. Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love -- anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly . Post twice if you'd like. Then, put this in your

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[pescivendolo]

silly girl. you've disabled anonymous posts. :P

[lackofcharm]

It's fixed now. I didn't intentionally disable them, I just didn't think about it being disabled if the entry was friends only, like all mine are. Thanks homie! See you soon!!

hi

[isawsparks]

Hey Amanda, it's Lauren! You're probably thinking, who is that? I've met you at a few Jump shows in Nashville, and then I found out through grumm that you and Crystal both have Livejournals, so I thought I would say hi. I was going to post in her journal too, but I think it's friends only.. Anyways, I'm going to add you both to my friends list, if that's ok. :)

Re: hi

[lackofcharm]

That sounds great. It's so exciting when you find and connect people with their ljs. Our journals are friends only, but we'll definitely add you!! Thanks!

Re: hi

[isawsparks]

yeah, I was glad I found you guys cause I wanted to be able to talk to you before the next concert (which will probably be a while for me anyways)! So you guys are going to Dock Street this year? You're going to have lots of fun. I wanted to go, but I'm gonna have to wait till 2004. :(

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[charlestongal]

hi I'm hoping this is the right amanda....my name is angela..i met you at the opies picnick..you broke the candy canes, in the cups, and my friend and I helped carry them to your car, then told you about Clara's coffe on king st, (which i hope you went too,hehe) anyways just trying to remeber if this was your name or not, I hope it is...I'm sry if this is the wrong person.

[anonymous]

Since no one has yet to actually participate in the real thread at hand here, I will.
I honestly feel, 98% of my waking life, that I am the single most utterly alone person on the planet. Perhaps this reflects selfishness. Perhaps just fear. I feel mostly alienated from even my closest friends, except for rare and brief episodes of true, vulnerable, spiritual intimacy. Now most of the time I feel quite liberated by my solitude. I am very aware of the fact that all reality is entirely created in my own mind, and it would seem to follow that I should be alone, for I ultimately am. But there are many times when the pain of loneliness is so sharp that all I can do is cry and be a miserable little shell of a human being who can think of nothing but the burning desire for someone to hold me and tell me that it's going to be ok.
And some people actually have told me that I am a strong person. Rubbish.
Wow, an anonymous secret fear/confession thread is the most cathartic thing I could have asked for.

Re: I'm sorry I didn't respond before now...

[lackofcharm]

but sometimes livejournal is stupid and doesn't notify me about comments. Thanks for sharing that with me. It's beautifully written, and so very heartfelt. I appreciate your honesty. I know anonimity helps, but it still takes courage to admit that kind of loneliness to yourself, much less someone else. If you need more of the cathartic anonymous release, feel free to comment away. I probably won't have any wise words to impart, but I would be honored to read what you have to say. ♥

[anonymous]

Where does a King go? How much rescuing does a lifegaurd have to do? Deep down- far away from Jump - far away from LJ - what does it really feel like? He's not looking for the 99, he's looking for you.

[lackofcharm]

A King goes anywhere he wants or needs to, or anywhere he is required to go. A lifeguard must rescue as often as there is an opportunity. Far away from Jump and LJ, what does what really feel like? I was never good with unidentified pronouns. And is He's not looking for the 99, he's looking for you. a reference to sheep? You can say what you honestly mean. There's no need to talk in codes and circles. I won't know who you are, so I can't be upset with you.

add me :-)

[istie3]

hi hi!!!! hope you had as much fun as i did at the winston show tonight ... jessie and i are glad we met you :-D yaayyayayy for jump !