i don't know

[lackofjealousy]

i feel out of place... the anxiety is suffocating.
everything seems to play in slow motion,
like life is giving me time to think...
but i am even more effortless than ever before to stop the painful moments
many, many moments.

i am being consumed,
by a sickness...
a sickness that i may never overcome.
i only learn more about it,
each time it

Comments

[anonymous]

What you think no one can see, most of us can. You'd be amazed, what you think you're hiding is written all over your face in your stongest of moments. People love you, Ashley. There are people in the world that think you are perfect. That overlook every mistake as though you never made it. People omit your imperfections. Not everyone has that. You need to look in your heart. The way you are with your brother and your closest of friends, that pure comfort, where you can say anything, ask anything, be anything. Maybe that's what you need. You need to look at all of the personalities you have been, or that you've pretended to be, and pick the one that is actually you. You need to put the past behind. All of it, maybe even the good memories, and just start fresh. It's not easy to forgive and forget, and it's not easy to know when you need to forgive yourself. You have to remember, you're only 19. You're not a grown up yet, and you don't have to act like it. Take what you have, take what you love, and cherish it. Don't wish you could

[surferchickk55]

Your entire entry is exactly how I feel...

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[belovedletdown]

what do you plan to do about it?