hurlbert toyoootaa
merse
game night was awesome, even nthough we only got through half a game of pictionary before it was crashed by three of the manliest men i know. actually oe of them i didnt know.. i also blew a huge wad on my brother for his birthday....... you sicko, i meant that i spent a lot of money on him. ...perv...
working full time while going to school full time is a bad bad BAD idea. but i need a car. i talked to my dad the other day about all the pressure thats on me about buying a new car, because now i have to work full time. working full time means that i have to live at home and at school, so everything is all confusing and hectic. i can never find anything because i cant remember where i put it or if i left it at the dorm or at home or at work. my grades are starting to drop tremendously because i'll forget my homework at home or at the dorm so i either cant do it, or cant get to it so that i can turn it in. i'm always at work, so even if i have my homework with me i dont get to it, then when i get home, all i want to do is sleep. hopefully dad will remember this once he sees my grades. it's hell right now, pure hell.
update on my mom:
she got a cat scan last thrusday before she left for CT, while i was at work. i called her on my break to see how everything went and she told me, "oh everything went fine, they didn't find any cancer, so everything is going to be alright!" i felt so good, i could fly. a couple days later when she got home, she was doing the dishes and she was talking to my dad and i over heard her say, "oh i gotta call the dr. tomorrow to see how the cat scan and test results came out" so i was like, "mom you told me the dr. said you were fine!" you could tell that i caught her in a lie, because she made the "oh shit" face. she tried exaplaining that she didn't want me to worry while she was gone and blah blah blah. then she PROMISED me that she would let me know as soon as she found out. that was lie #2. for days i tried getting her to tell me what the results were and she woudn't, and i finally cornered her in the car and told her that i'm her daughter and i have the right to know, and that i'm worrying more not knowing than i would if i knew, because my imagination is running away with itself. so she finally told me that they found a mass in her throat, and a third mass in her breast, (aside from the other two that turned out to be benign). and then she told me that she lied (#3) about getting a blood test. so then why did she tell my dad she needed to get the results?? i dunno anymore. i've stopped trying with that woman. she'll tell me on her own terms and i'll have to leave it at that. meanwhile she has to go for another biopsy, this time on her throat. this one hasn't quite hit me as a misfortune yet, i'm being more optomistic than usual, or more in denial..
i really need a vacation