Comments | ladida: Distant

ladida

Distant

Jun 15, 2007 23:00

I've been feeling distant from Mike these past few weeks. It is very unsettling. Sometimes I feel the roller coaster ride will never end, and other times I don't want it to. Go Figure. We go from totally lovey-together engaged happy, to a feeling like roomates :( Lately I think it is me trying to hard. I need to refocus on myself. I actually ( Read more... )

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ancevrial June 16 2007, 11:18:06 UTC

Hmmmmm... I just finished watching sliding doors (older movie hadnt seen it before) and Im thinking we are so much alike.
I to am going through a similar thing. I used to train 3 times a day (nods.. that is not a mistype) gym morning teach/train at lunch and train at night.
Now I am reduced to 1 night a week, most of the time getting in 25 minutes then teaching the rest. let me tell you being an instructor/senior student, is draining. Don't get me wrong I respect the "chain of command" and realise this is my position and I am proud of it... but I find it funny that some instructors complain about missing 1 night because they have to teach (OMG)... sorry I'm ranting.

Try talking to Mike, see how he is feeling, if he is feeling the same way then perhaps you could talk about what led up to this in the first place.... If it is 1 sided, the only thing I could suggest and sit back and think about what happened to get you to where you are now.

Don't make the mistake of just leaving it and accepting it, and thats on both topics. :)

ladida June 16 2007, 13:07:17 UTC

We have both gone through a very difficult year. One filled with addiction, recovery, death in the family, insecurities, counseling.. to name a few. The fact that we have made it through it I should rejoice in. I am hoping this is the downward slope and the road to a new beginning for us. The only truely good thing is that we do talk, though sometimes I feel we miss each others points. I do know that nothing is ever perfect and maybe in truth I just want it to be. I don't think wanting to feel secure is wrong, but it is something that I find difficult to expect from someone else. Maybe, no definately my lack of strength and self confidence is causing this insecurity in myself. Yes I do need to work out more and do things for me and not so much others. Wow.. seems like therapy all over again! Lol ( ... )