letting go why is it so hard.. sleep seems impossible the tears won't stop.. Where have I been? why did I let it get this far? In my own frailty and fear I let this happen. I manifested it, let it take form, and now it's here. Everythig I feared I created, unknowingly brought it about Why can't I see that it was me..
I'm at that point again where they always pull the rug out and you fall down. Only this time I wish it was only physically. This time its emotionally. Normally I can handle most anything but when it comes to my heart I'm a wreck.. So I'll see how the next few days pan out and I'll let you know. I wish I knew :(
I remember on Island once, someone asked me to marry them.. they were good friends and I wanted something special to say to them.. (they are together in real life so it was extra special).. and this is what I found
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