this is sort of how my little brother left the earth. but he was put in the hospital bed by a bad car accident. the night before his accident, i had to tell him i couldn't talk to him (he was, as he often was, pretty drunk): "i'll call you tomorrow, okay?" were the last words i said to my brother.
these are the moments, strangely enough, when we become most fully alive and confront everything in life that frightens us.
Re: thoughtsex_chexmix736April 27 2003, 12:30:05 UTC
yes. i still can't believe i saw what i saw as my brother died (and after). it still doesn't seem real. i don't know when real acceptance, or assimilation or whatever, is supposed to come. perhaps never. perhaps it depends on the person.
then again, for me this was the first in a string of terrible things, so it all seemed surreal after a while. i never want to be in a hospital.
ive had sooo much hospital in my life the past 2 yrs...with my grandfather and uncle passing in the same 6 months... my grat aunt just passed and my grandfathers first wife just passed too.. i had a scare 2 weeks ago with my boyfriends mother.. we thought she had another stroke and now this..
i know that as of yesterday ~ 5.30 he was still alive.... off of the respirator... but well see if he made it through night...
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these are the moments, strangely enough, when we become most fully alive and confront everything in life that frightens us.
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its like a movie or a trick..
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then again, for me this was the first in a string of terrible things, so it all seemed surreal after a while. i never want to be in a hospital.
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i had a scare 2 weeks ago with my boyfriends mother.. we thought she had another stroke and now this..
i know that as of yesterday ~ 5.30 he was still alive.... off of the respirator... but well see if he made it through night...
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