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ladistrange

Let's try this again, shall we?

Dec 12, 2016 10:02

****EDIT 15 DECEMBER 2016**** Rather than making multiple public posts on this subject and my journey, I will be commenting on this same post from time to time. Feel free to follow along ( Read more... )

changes to make, booze, whole body health

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ladistrange December 14 2016, 13:45:35 UTC

Rather than make multiple public posts about this, I'm going to comment on my progress here from time to time...or perhaps my failures, who knows ( ... )

DAY FOUR ladistrange December 15 2016, 19:03:18 UTC

Today at The Snake Pit has been the kind of day where I REALLY want to have a drink when I go home, just to wash the bad taste of my job out of my mouth.

If I COULD go home and have A DRINK, it would be fine, but right now I can't. One will become two, two will become a bottle. I know this.

So I will leave the snake pit and run errands, then hit Starbucks and treat myself to something sweet and warm and decadent. Then I will go home and do some more prep work for the Tea I'm hosting this weekend. Maybe I'll read a bit, or color, or see if I can resuscitate my collage/vision board project. What I WILL NOT do, is pick up a bottle of wine.

It's funny; when I feel like this, sometimes if I can just get home without giving into the craving and stopping at the wine shop on the way that all by itself kills the craving. It's like the part of my brain that wants the booze realizes it's not going to get what it wants and so gives up bitching for it. I'll take that as a positive thing.

One week ladistrange December 19 2016, 15:01:58 UTC

It's been 7 days without any alcohol. By Thursday of this week I'll have set a new 'record ( ... )

Still dry.... ladistrange December 21 2016, 14:27:13 UTC

The last time I tried this was in February. Some may recall I made it 9 days, then I had a horrid day at work and a big fight with the spouse and that ended my admittedly weak resolve.

Today is Wednesday. I had my last drink [for a while] on Sunday the 11th. That makes today day 10.

I have a long weekend to get through, and we have no plans that will involve me leaving the house, so this weekend will be a challenge. I think if I find things to keep busy with and my brain chemistry cooperates I can do it, but I'm not sure.

I've not really been 'craving' alcohol. Even when I think 'gee, I'd like a glass of wine', it's been more just a passing thought than anything else, which I guess is a good thing. Still it's only been 10 days. less than 2 weeks. The end of January is still pretty far away, and I'm still really worried about going to the doctor and dentist next month.

One day at a time, as the saying goes.

Day 11 ladistrange December 22 2016, 19:50:45 UTC

OK. That brain chemistry I was talking about? It's getting it's crazy on today. It's like I can FEEL my whole mindset shifting; the short temper, the nebulous anxiety, the litany sliding through my brain of everything I've ever done 'wrong'. For. No. Reason. Nothing 'triggered' this, it's just chemistry. it almost makes me look forward to talking to a doctor next month and maybe getting medicated ( ... )