i love sandy because after me standing doing washing up trying to plan getting food for dinner around him doing his church thing, and it being already 6ish and he not home, he comes through the door with dinner ( Read more... )

i am looking back through photos/my life and am now wondering what kept me with kosta for so long. unfortunately im thinking it might have been the sex ( Read more... )

sandy has gone to germany on business. i am at his house and francesca is coming to visit and entertain and sitract (typo, but i may use it to means a sisterly distraction) me tomorrow. and shes staying the night here ( Read more... )

since a mister kinniburgh has reminded me i havn't posted in a while i should probably make an update for the thousands of my adoring fans. lmao as fa as i know there is only two people who read this. chris ans isadora at times. chris is just nosy. but hes one of my bestest buddies and he knows everything anyway. isadora os not as she claims a shit ( Read more... )

i am now at sandy's house. been here since saturday. yesterday marked 4 months for us, and we ate out, went to see shrek 3 which i loved, then came home and snuggled in bed with wine and chocolate orange :) heaven. i mean come on, laying there being told nice things and fed chocolate orange, with the man whom i am totally head over heels for? dusnt ( Read more... )

oops sent an email to sandy's work mail and apprently im not supposed to. lol. hes bored and being hired out to other people. the email went round but had rules like if the firearms want him they have to give them a camel/6 acres of land lmao. that's hilarious ( Read more... )

and the last week was heaven. sandy came up here to see me and stay here which was fantastic. he helped my sister with her work, he bantered my parents, he was fantastic i was so proud. i loved that i could leave him alone for a while if i had to go off and do something and he would be fine with my family. it was great. and then we went to his ( Read more... )

'my bed is spacious, there are no duvet issues, and i am not falling off the bed. but i'd STILL rather have you here instead. i love you and can't wait to see you again. xxxxxxxx'

and i can't stop smiling. :)

just had a really deep chat with harkin about religion and life and stuff. it was really nice to be able to talk about it ( Read more... )

ok im tearing myself up over this. i love sandy. i love his very much. but the sex thing is coming between us. and i dont want to break up with him over this. apart from its how he lost his last two girlfriends. and i dont want to be lumped in with them. but now its a block that stops that connection feeling. and i need something. i want to be able ( Read more... )