yeah I guess I imagined it
it wasn't going to happen anyway
I guess I wont be over it for awhile
and I can't imagine ever feeling this way about anyone ever again
but I mostly just give up on the whole notion of romantic love
~ladymoon~

It seems I can hate and love almost simultaneously
and with the same passion for each

something I never really thought could occur

~ladymoon~

I feel more alone then ever
more then I have in years
there is nowhere to turn and nothing I can do or find to help

I can't kid myself anymore
about anything

my stomache is flipping around

I'll get drunk and listen to songs that will make me cry

I want to call in dead to work

I'm pretty much a waste of air
I give up on life
~ladymoon~

"..and all of the evil people were trying to catch me.they wanted me to become one of them, because if you've got someone beside you, it's always just a little bit less lonely, and even evil doesnt want to be alone..."
Cassie_cans dreams

~ladymoon~

I'm starting to feel like a cat with a piece of string dangled before it
Am I being toyed with
are others in the same position
or is this all supposed to be in pure fun?
~ladymoon~

Honestly though
can you really go wrong with a name like Lovecraft?!
~ladymoon~

It's hard to be upset about it
the true realization that it won't EVER happen
but there's a comfort there to
like I don't deserve it anyway

Mostly I just can't feel sad when I get to see him smile
~ladymoon~

Over thinking...
It's so tiring
but I don't think I'd stop if I had the choice
~ladymoon~

Yep...I'm in love

crap
~ladymoon~