I've been in a sort of denile about how depressed i am. last night that kinda came to light. i hate how i always end up back at the bottom. Falling in love and making a family was sposed to be my dream but its more just made me realize how entirely inadiquite i am. it used to be okay, i saw the world differently. unrealisicly. i chocked it up to ( Read more... )

how the fuck am i going to do this. im pregnant. baby number two. holy shit ( Read more... )

so much has happend and its left me wondering if im truely happy. i think i am, but i also think im getting in the way of my own happiness ( Read more... )

signed the lease today!!!!!! the place is boss! i <3 it.

we're spending the night tonight! first night wooooot!!

oh yea and i ended up buying a costume. it was too cute not to. and it was only 20 dollars!! i'll post pics later if i have them.

wahhhh im so excited

soooooo the cutting of my hours has resulted in me not buying a new costume this year. im borrowing one tho. Teresa has a friend who has a bunch so we're going later today to go check em out. we were going to go as cop and firefighter but the stores were pretty much cleaned out. stupid last min shopping haha ( Read more... )

i dont even know what to feel like. but i know its good. and im so glad to be feeling good again ( Read more... )

i've been partying for like a fucking month. haha not everyday, but like at least 3-4 days out of the week. i feel like i practicly live at joes. even derek made the comment that im there too much. i can never tell if hes joking or not. but im always invited so i guess its fine. derek was going on last night about how i wasnt a girl to them, cause ( Read more... )

so so far i've slept with two people. cory, and ryan. what, two you say? yes. i had a one night stand with a virgin while cory was in the other room. luckly the heat isnt on me anymore. the whole house knew what happend before i even woke up. isnt that allways how it works. so i guess its true, once you have sex with someone sex with anyone becomes ( Read more... )

I'm trying to sleep ( Read more... )

okay soo this is bad ( Read more... )