Well I have a job now! my firt day was yesterday. It was fun Neil camein with hs mom it was funny he go me a little nervous but he stayed away from me. I like being in the gameroom with all the litte kids its fun. I dont like my uniform but heifim getin payed ill wear it. My home life is still the same crap. Although its gtte slightly better.Thanxs ( Read more... )

could not b any better {by the way im being sarcastic}my dad still has no job! my mom is now asmathic.theyargued today about $. school is my only escape frm my stupid world. to make things worst my dad cant pay the insurance to the van :( MY life is still crappy im back wer i was 2 weeks ago.I FEEL SO ALONE SOMETIMES, I FEEL AS IF IVE CHANGED IN A ( Read more... )

HAPPY NEW YEARS! IM SO HAPPY, I CONFESSED MY FEELINGS TO ADRIAN IM SO HAPPY.IM HERE ALONE BRINGING IN THE NEW YEARS WITH A BOTTLE OF WINE. I THINK IM DRUNK, ANYWAYS TOMMOROW IM GOING OUT WITH ADRIAN CAUSE FRIDAY HE GOES HOME :( I FEEL BETTER THOUGH. HAPPIER THAN IVE' EVER BEEN. I NEED MORE HAPINESS IN MY LIFE ITS SO BORING lol. LETS SEE NEW YEARS ( Read more... )

YUESTERDAY WAS ADRIAN'S BIRTHDAY, WE WENT TO THE MOVIES AND SAW PAYCHECK THE ONE WITH BEN AFFLECK (SO HOT) ANYWAYS IT WAS A VERY INTERESTING NIGHT. HE ASKED ME IF I WOULD EVER SLAP HIM?I SAID NO! NOT UNLESSS HE GAVE ME A REASON TO SO I ASK WHY? HE SAID FOR PUTTING HIS ARM AROUND ME SO I SAID HE COULD. SO A FEW MINUTES AFTER HE PUT HIS ARM AROUND ME ( Read more... )

WELL....... CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR WAS LIKE LAST YEARS, IV'E SORT OF LOST THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT. USUALLY IN MY FAMILY IM THE ONE WITH THE JOLLY SPIRIT AROUND THIS HOUSE. LAST YEAR WAS A DISASTER MY DAD AND I HAD A BIG FIGHT AT MY GRANDMOTHERS HOUSE ( Read more... )

YESTERDAY WAS ONE OF THE BEST NIGHTS OF MY LIFE! I WENT TO DISNEY LAND WITH MY SPAWNS AND ADRIAN. IT WAS ALL SO MAGICAL. WERE PRETTY GOOD FRIENDS, AND FOR THE FIRST TIME I FELT CLOSE TO HIM. FROM THE MOMENT WE GOT ON THE RIDES I LEANED ON HIS SHOULDERS, I FELT A LITTLE AWKWARD SO I ASKED HIM IF IT WAS OK. A WHILE LATER HE PUT HIS ARMS AROUND ME I ( Read more... )

IM SO HAPPY MY FRIEND IS COMING INTO TOWN! I HAVENT SEEN HIM SINCE AUGUST.WE'VE BEEN TALKIN FOR TWO YEARS NOW. HE RECENTLY CONFESSED TO ME THAT HE'S INTRSTED IN ME IT FREAKED ME OUT BUT NOW I DUNNO. MAYBE ILL LET HIM INTO MY HEART. MAYBE I WON'T BE SO SCARED ABOUT COMMITMENT

Today was our 1st Concert! we rocked the Gym. it was a Tree Lighting Ceremony Sv joined us, of course they SUCKED! YEAH IM A BRAVE ( Read more... )

2ND ENTRY ONLY 15 MORE DAYS TILL MY B-DAY IM EXPECTING PRESENTS!!!!!!!!!! LOL BEING I LOVE REALLY BITES LOVE BITES IT HASEN'T TREATED ME VERY WELL TOO MANY DECEPTIONS AND LIES, A GUY IVE KNOWN FOR SOME TIME HAS BEEN REALLY GOOD TO ME HE RECENTLY TOLD ME HE LIKED ME WHAT TO DO GIVE LOVE A 2ND CHANCE?

this is my 1st time writing in a journal, t hanks to my friend Angel, its thanksgiving as usual everyones busy here. what is thanksgiving about anyway? for some its a time to eat big feasts and for others like myself its a period of time when u start to think about everything u have and what you take for granite. for example i take my friends and ( Read more... )