Being the only child in the household, my parents expect nothing short of perfection, which I am far from.
I throw up. Alot. My mom almost caught me once, she even eccused me of it. But somehow, I highly doubt that it would bother her one bit. I know that it's an extremely unhealthy thing to do, but I don't plan on stopping anytime soon.
I blame myself for almost everything I have ever done or been through. I miss him even after everything he did to me. He's mad me a horrible person in a way. I have no guilt. I am "dating" a guy. But he doesnt know I dont want to be with him and I that I have been with a good number of guys while "with" him. Now I feel I have found a sincere guy I need to tell the "boyfriend" that we are not together anymore. The only problem is it's his birthday tomorrow...
i really just don't care about my friends anymore. i can't wait till i graduate so i can just leave and never see them again. there's just too much crap going on and i'm getting the fuck out of it.
I cut myself because it is something that I have the power to choose to do. Everything else is predetermined by my parents or friends. Hurting myself is something that is mine, and mine alone. I know I shouldn't, but it's the only thing that reminds me that I'm not a preprogammed robot.
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I throw up. Alot. My mom almost caught me once, she even eccused me of it. But somehow, I highly doubt that it would bother her one bit. I know that it's an extremely unhealthy thing to do, but I don't plan on stopping anytime soon.
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