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[ladycambria]

my friend....Ive known her since I began doing Corona faire....she is a beaming ray of sunshine with the most amazing GREEN eyes Ive ever had the pleasure of enjoying.....bubbly, fun, exuberant girl....my fellow braider and drinking pal......and yet underlying..she was unhappy.....she is married..sweet, kind man who loves her.....yet she was

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[irishtempest]

I am SO sorry to hear you are going through this. That the little boy will never know his mother. Sadly I know exactly what you (and the little boy eventually) are feeling. This is exactly how my mother died.

Be angry. It's okay. Be really fucking pissed off. Then let it go, and understand that ultimately the disease is where you should be angry. Be sad for the life choices she made, and know you will have a part of her, the healthy one with the light of that precious little boy.

Yes, it is a choice to pick up that drink, but some are weaker than others, and cannot, absolutely cannot deal with life like you and I can. It's a daily walk with demons for them, and the only way to silence the deafening pain is thru alcohol. Know that if she could, she would have changed everything. She dealt with life the only way she knew how.

*huge HUGE hugs sweetness*

thank you

[ladycambria]

it's always good to get other peoples perspectives....especially on crappiness like this....