Forgive Me
Title: Forgive me? (1/1)
Author: _living_is_easy (previously ladylegolas1012)
Rating/Pairing: Slash! DM/BB
Disclaimer: I do not know/own Billy Boyd of Dominic Monaghan (as awesome as that would be!). This story unfortunately is just as I said. A story. It isn't real in any way.
Feedback: Yes please!!!!!
A/N: Just... enjoy!!!
The heat from the fire began to die as the stray songs started to quiet and become deeper. Billy's emerald green eyes bore into the back of Dom's head, pleading him to turn around. But Dom couldn't.. no wouldnt. How could he have done that? Dom loved him.
A warm leg pressed against Dom's as a body sat next to him. He looked up meeting the concerned face of his british co-star.
"Are you okay?" Orlando asked, his voice husky, an empty beer in hand.
"Fine." Dom heard himself croak. But he wasn't fine. Billy had lied to him. Bully had betrayed him! But what hurt the most, was that as much as Dom tried to hate Billy, he knew he would still do anything for the man. He knew he would still die for him.
After reasurring Orlando that yes, he was fine. No, he wasn't unhappy, and no, he wouldn't like another beer, Orlando stood up and left him to follow after a pretty blonde. If only he were more like Orlando... Then he wouldnt have gotten hurt. But Dom wasnt. Dom couldnt just go after a random girl -or guy for that matter- to complete him for the night. It was never real, never true. Love was the only thing that could complete you.
"Dom." Billy said softly from behind the log Dom was sitting on. "I need to talk te ye." Billy said as his voice cracked. Dom squeezed his eyesshut and bit his bottom lip, refusing to reply. "Dom." Billy repeated louder this time. No, not louder... just closer. Slowly Billy lowered himself so he was sitting next to Dom. Close enough so they could talk, but far enough away so they were not touching.
"No Bill." Dom said not opening his eyes.
"Dom, we could talk here or in private. Either way I am not leavin' til ye talk to me." Billy replied. Dom opened his eyes and met Billy's determined ones. Billy wouldn't give up and he knew that.
"Fine." Dom said sounding stronger then he actually felt. "We can go to the field." Not waiting for a reply, Dom stood quickly and walked around the fire. Without needing to turn, he knew Billy was following closely behind. He could sense Billy always. Letting a single tear fall down his cheek he told himself to be strong. He wouldnt break. He wouldnt cry. At least not in front of the one man who could make him do so. Behind the closed doors of his bedroom, his sanctuary, he would permit all walls to crumble. But not out here.
"Dom." Billy said stopping short an planting his feet into the ground. Wiping the tear from his chin, Dom turned to face the one man he had ever loved, preparing himself for what he had to do. "I'm sorry."
"That's all?" Dom snorted a laugh, surprised at how angry he had just become. The night before he had invisioned many scenario's of everything being a dream, of him burstinginto tears, of Billy telling him everything was actually over, but he never felt anger. Interrupting Billy's response, he continued; "That is all you have to say to me?! I loved you Billy! Fuck, I still love you! And to see you... last night... to see..." He stopped short feeling the anger retreat and the tears come flooding behind his eyes. He wouldnt let them come.
"Dom, it wasn't like that at all! I love ye." Billy said softly taking a step forward.
"Love me?!" Dom yelled. "You love me?" He repeated, lowering his voice slightly. "Did you tell her that too? Does she love you Bill?"
"No! I don't love her. I love ya. Ye just don't understand Dom." Billy said closing his eyes.
"Then tell me Bill. What don't I understand?" Dom hissed, the anger returning. He damn well understood. Billy lied to him. Billy loved that woman. And Dom had always meant nothing.
"It's complicated." Billy replied in a whisper.
"No. It's not. You lied to me. You betrayed me. I love you Billy and I trusted you.You took that trust and threw it away like it was shit, like I was shit. You never loved me." Dom said crossing his arms. A silence settled over them and neither one of them moved. Billy licked his lower lip and let out a shaky sigh. Dom needed to get away. Fast, before his promise to himself was broken. With a heavy sigh he shook his head and started to walk away. It was over.
"Yer wrong." Billy whispered hesitantly as if Dom would snap again. Dom froze, waiting for Billy to continue. Billy turned around so he was looking at Dom's back. Realizing the other man was not going to turn nor interrupt, he continued. "I do love ye."
"You still.."
"Lied. Betrayed ye. Yes, I'm ashamed. I don't even know why." Billy said with a sad chuckle. "I hurt ye. The one thing i didn' want. I loved ye so much more then i've ever loved another person. I was scared. Ye are so much like me, an so different. Ye make me laugh, ye make me sing, ye make me, me. Ye even make my cry." Dom turned slowly to look at Billy. Tears were falling down his cheeks making him real, making him human. "I was scared because ye are so right for me. Ye are my soul mate. Ye complete me.Ye are perfect. Bit am i? I am hardly perfect. What if ye didnt love me the same way i loved ye? What if i was just another lover? I wanted to be so much more then that. I want to be so much more. I'm an idiot Dommeh. Ye know that. But i'm an idiot who is madly in love with ye and will do anything for yer forgiveness." Billy finished and took up the majority of the room left between them. "Anything."
Dom's bottom lip quivered as he bit his tongue to keep from crying. He loved Billy so much and all he wanted was to forgive him. But what would happen next? Could they move on? He meet Billy's eyes, then felt two hands on his back pull him closer.
"I was wrong. I regret everything, and I'll prove it." Billy whispered in Dom's ear. About to murmor 'how' Dom felt Billy's lips crush to his. Billy pulled away only to kiss Dom again more gently. "I love ye." He said simply as he traced a finger along the line of Dom's lips then down Dom's chest.
"I..I love you too." Dom whispered taking Billy's head in his hands before pressing their lips together. Billy's tongue snaked its way into Dom's mouth and both men sank to their knees. Billy's fingers played with the buttons of Dom's shirt, unbuttoning them slowly. Dom smiled against Billy's mouth and removed a hand from his cheek. Grabbing the hem of Billy's shirt he pulled it up over Billy's head breaking their connection for a mere second.
Billy's hand ran up Dom's stomach and chest pulling the now unbuttoned shier off of Dom's body. Billy moved his knees closer to Dom's so the rest of thier bodies were two inches apart. Breaking their kiss, Billy kissed Dom's jaw bone, neck, adam's apple, then chest while his hands worked furiously with Dom's jean's zipper. Billy sucked gently on Dom's collar bone as he slid the jeans over and off of Dom's hips. Kicking off his jeans Dom ran his hands over Billy's back bringing him closer.
Billy moved forward just enough so he was perched ontop of Dom's knee and with a lick up Dom's neck he started to grind his own hardness on Dom's exposed skin. His fingers ran gently along the elastic of Dom's boxers, teasing him. Dom's hands moved to Billy's buttoned pants and worked to free him fully. Pushing Billy flat on the ground he smiled, finding Billy had chosen the comando route for the day.
Billy moved forward just enough so he was perched on top of Dom's knee and with a lick up the side of Dom's neck he started to grind his own hardness on Dom's exposed skin. His fingers ran gently along the elastic of Dom's boxers, teasing him. Dom's hands moved to Billy's buttoned pants and worked to free him fully. Pushing Billy flat on the ground he smiled, finding Billy had chosen the commando route for the day.
Wrapping his hand around Billy’s still growing erection, Dom slowly moved his hand up and down Billy’s length making the man whimper beneath him. Dom’s blue eyes locked with Billy’s and all the answers came to him. Billy’s face was twisted with pleasure, need, and an understanding. We can get through this… Billy is all I ever wanted... ever needed. Dom thought as he leaned down to cover Billy’s mouth with his own, silencing the deep groan from Billy’s throat as Dom’s hand worked faster.
“Dom,” Billy cried out as his hips bucked forward and he tried to control his release. Dom stopped moving and watched as Billy lay in the dirt, his breath coming short, as he tried to calm himself. Dom slowly crawled backwards, moving unnoticed by Billy whose eyes were closed, until he sat beside Billy’s legs. He smiled once before dipping down to probe Billy’s cock with his tongue. Billy stiffened at the sudden touch and without letting him get into full control, Dom covered Billy’s cock with his mouth. Billy groaned again and arched his back, trying to force more of himself into Dom’s warm mouth.
“Oh...God…Dom,” Billy shook reaching out with his hands to try to grab something, anything, but found nothing.
“Billy,” Dom purred looking up for a moment to watch the feelings dance across Billy’s face. Returning his mouth he reached under Billy to grab the man's buttocks to pull him forward slightly.
“Dom,” Billy cried out suddenly. Dom could taste the hot salty liquid roll down his throat. Sitting back up he looked over Billy who lay shivering on the ground, a smile on his face. Running a finger along his chin, Dom licked the missed cum off of his finger before moving up to press his lips to Billy’s.
“Let’s say we get inside to the shower.” Dom whispered in Billy’s ear. Billy looked at both of them, covered in sweat, and dirt and nodded.
Now, I know it needs a little work BUT... I GOT A STAR! *dances* Okay... I am going to go now... *giggle* I will post again later after cleaning.
Author: _living_is_easy (previously ladylegolas1012)
Rating/Pairing: Slash! DM/BB
Disclaimer: I do not know/own Billy Boyd of Dominic Monaghan (as awesome as that would be!). This story unfortunately is just as I said. A story. It isn't real in any way.
Feedback: Yes please!!!!!
A/N: Just... enjoy!!!
The heat from the fire began to die as the stray songs started to quiet and become deeper. Billy's emerald green eyes bore into the back of Dom's head, pleading him to turn around. But Dom couldn't.. no wouldnt. How could he have done that? Dom loved him.
A warm leg pressed against Dom's as a body sat next to him. He looked up meeting the concerned face of his british co-star.
"Are you okay?" Orlando asked, his voice husky, an empty beer in hand.
"Fine." Dom heard himself croak. But he wasn't fine. Billy had lied to him. Bully had betrayed him! But what hurt the most, was that as much as Dom tried to hate Billy, he knew he would still do anything for the man. He knew he would still die for him.
After reasurring Orlando that yes, he was fine. No, he wasn't unhappy, and no, he wouldn't like another beer, Orlando stood up and left him to follow after a pretty blonde. If only he were more like Orlando... Then he wouldnt have gotten hurt. But Dom wasnt. Dom couldnt just go after a random girl -or guy for that matter- to complete him for the night. It was never real, never true. Love was the only thing that could complete you.
"Dom." Billy said softly from behind the log Dom was sitting on. "I need to talk te ye." Billy said as his voice cracked. Dom squeezed his eyesshut and bit his bottom lip, refusing to reply. "Dom." Billy repeated louder this time. No, not louder... just closer. Slowly Billy lowered himself so he was sitting next to Dom. Close enough so they could talk, but far enough away so they were not touching.
"No Bill." Dom said not opening his eyes.
"Dom, we could talk here or in private. Either way I am not leavin' til ye talk to me." Billy replied. Dom opened his eyes and met Billy's determined ones. Billy wouldn't give up and he knew that.
"Fine." Dom said sounding stronger then he actually felt. "We can go to the field." Not waiting for a reply, Dom stood quickly and walked around the fire. Without needing to turn, he knew Billy was following closely behind. He could sense Billy always. Letting a single tear fall down his cheek he told himself to be strong. He wouldnt break. He wouldnt cry. At least not in front of the one man who could make him do so. Behind the closed doors of his bedroom, his sanctuary, he would permit all walls to crumble. But not out here.
"Dom." Billy said stopping short an planting his feet into the ground. Wiping the tear from his chin, Dom turned to face the one man he had ever loved, preparing himself for what he had to do. "I'm sorry."
"That's all?" Dom snorted a laugh, surprised at how angry he had just become. The night before he had invisioned many scenario's of everything being a dream, of him burstinginto tears, of Billy telling him everything was actually over, but he never felt anger. Interrupting Billy's response, he continued; "That is all you have to say to me?! I loved you Billy! Fuck, I still love you! And to see you... last night... to see..." He stopped short feeling the anger retreat and the tears come flooding behind his eyes. He wouldnt let them come.
"Dom, it wasn't like that at all! I love ye." Billy said softly taking a step forward.
"Love me?!" Dom yelled. "You love me?" He repeated, lowering his voice slightly. "Did you tell her that too? Does she love you Bill?"
"No! I don't love her. I love ya. Ye just don't understand Dom." Billy said closing his eyes.
"Then tell me Bill. What don't I understand?" Dom hissed, the anger returning. He damn well understood. Billy lied to him. Billy loved that woman. And Dom had always meant nothing.
"It's complicated." Billy replied in a whisper.
"No. It's not. You lied to me. You betrayed me. I love you Billy and I trusted you.You took that trust and threw it away like it was shit, like I was shit. You never loved me." Dom said crossing his arms. A silence settled over them and neither one of them moved. Billy licked his lower lip and let out a shaky sigh. Dom needed to get away. Fast, before his promise to himself was broken. With a heavy sigh he shook his head and started to walk away. It was over.
"Yer wrong." Billy whispered hesitantly as if Dom would snap again. Dom froze, waiting for Billy to continue. Billy turned around so he was looking at Dom's back. Realizing the other man was not going to turn nor interrupt, he continued. "I do love ye."
"You still.."
"Lied. Betrayed ye. Yes, I'm ashamed. I don't even know why." Billy said with a sad chuckle. "I hurt ye. The one thing i didn' want. I loved ye so much more then i've ever loved another person. I was scared. Ye are so much like me, an so different. Ye make me laugh, ye make me sing, ye make me, me. Ye even make my cry." Dom turned slowly to look at Billy. Tears were falling down his cheeks making him real, making him human. "I was scared because ye are so right for me. Ye are my soul mate. Ye complete me.Ye are perfect. Bit am i? I am hardly perfect. What if ye didnt love me the same way i loved ye? What if i was just another lover? I wanted to be so much more then that. I want to be so much more. I'm an idiot Dommeh. Ye know that. But i'm an idiot who is madly in love with ye and will do anything for yer forgiveness." Billy finished and took up the majority of the room left between them. "Anything."
Dom's bottom lip quivered as he bit his tongue to keep from crying. He loved Billy so much and all he wanted was to forgive him. But what would happen next? Could they move on? He meet Billy's eyes, then felt two hands on his back pull him closer.
"I was wrong. I regret everything, and I'll prove it." Billy whispered in Dom's ear. About to murmor 'how' Dom felt Billy's lips crush to his. Billy pulled away only to kiss Dom again more gently. "I love ye." He said simply as he traced a finger along the line of Dom's lips then down Dom's chest.
"I..I love you too." Dom whispered taking Billy's head in his hands before pressing their lips together. Billy's tongue snaked its way into Dom's mouth and both men sank to their knees. Billy's fingers played with the buttons of Dom's shirt, unbuttoning them slowly. Dom smiled against Billy's mouth and removed a hand from his cheek. Grabbing the hem of Billy's shirt he pulled it up over Billy's head breaking their connection for a mere second.
Billy's hand ran up Dom's stomach and chest pulling the now unbuttoned shier off of Dom's body. Billy moved his knees closer to Dom's so the rest of thier bodies were two inches apart. Breaking their kiss, Billy kissed Dom's jaw bone, neck, adam's apple, then chest while his hands worked furiously with Dom's jean's zipper. Billy sucked gently on Dom's collar bone as he slid the jeans over and off of Dom's hips. Kicking off his jeans Dom ran his hands over Billy's back bringing him closer.
Billy moved forward just enough so he was perched ontop of Dom's knee and with a lick up Dom's neck he started to grind his own hardness on Dom's exposed skin. His fingers ran gently along the elastic of Dom's boxers, teasing him. Dom's hands moved to Billy's buttoned pants and worked to free him fully. Pushing Billy flat on the ground he smiled, finding Billy had chosen the comando route for the day.
Billy moved forward just enough so he was perched on top of Dom's knee and with a lick up the side of Dom's neck he started to grind his own hardness on Dom's exposed skin. His fingers ran gently along the elastic of Dom's boxers, teasing him. Dom's hands moved to Billy's buttoned pants and worked to free him fully. Pushing Billy flat on the ground he smiled, finding Billy had chosen the commando route for the day.
Wrapping his hand around Billy’s still growing erection, Dom slowly moved his hand up and down Billy’s length making the man whimper beneath him. Dom’s blue eyes locked with Billy’s and all the answers came to him. Billy’s face was twisted with pleasure, need, and an understanding. We can get through this… Billy is all I ever wanted... ever needed. Dom thought as he leaned down to cover Billy’s mouth with his own, silencing the deep groan from Billy’s throat as Dom’s hand worked faster.
“Dom,” Billy cried out as his hips bucked forward and he tried to control his release. Dom stopped moving and watched as Billy lay in the dirt, his breath coming short, as he tried to calm himself. Dom slowly crawled backwards, moving unnoticed by Billy whose eyes were closed, until he sat beside Billy’s legs. He smiled once before dipping down to probe Billy’s cock with his tongue. Billy stiffened at the sudden touch and without letting him get into full control, Dom covered Billy’s cock with his mouth. Billy groaned again and arched his back, trying to force more of himself into Dom’s warm mouth.
“Oh...God…Dom,” Billy shook reaching out with his hands to try to grab something, anything, but found nothing.
“Billy,” Dom purred looking up for a moment to watch the feelings dance across Billy’s face. Returning his mouth he reached under Billy to grab the man's buttocks to pull him forward slightly.
“Dom,” Billy cried out suddenly. Dom could taste the hot salty liquid roll down his throat. Sitting back up he looked over Billy who lay shivering on the ground, a smile on his face. Running a finger along his chin, Dom licked the missed cum off of his finger before moving up to press his lips to Billy’s.
“Let’s say we get inside to the shower.” Dom whispered in Billy’s ear. Billy looked at both of them, covered in sweat, and dirt and nodded.
Now, I know it needs a little work BUT... I GOT A STAR! *dances* Okay... I am going to go now... *giggle* I will post again later after cleaning.