I'm so glad you had a VBAC. Really glad. I remember when you had Doomling and I was despairing for you, but I didn't want to say anything then to add to what you were feeling.
Ironically, I have my appointment with the psych I am seeing about the PTSD from his birth.
Did her birth fix what happened to me from his? No. It has given me a view of myself I never thought I would have. And a feeling of empowerment I can't describe.
So now I continue to heal. And know that I learned from what I didn't know, and that benefited me, and both my kids.
Thank you. I still feel dicey about saying anything about how your first birthing experience left you with needing therapy. To me, its like there's something fundamentally wrong there-- and not wrong with you but wrong with some teams of doctors and nurses to whom we entrust our care... especially during a vulnerable time like birthing. And that bothers me on a deep emotional level. I've read some pretty shocking and disappointing things about doctors and nurses and the recommendations given when things are unfamiliar to them, but now with the confidence, maturity and faith in myself that I didn't have the first time I gave birth
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When your in that moment between contractions and then you realize that a tiny person is coming out of your body and your bringing that person into this world, that is a feeling that only Mothers can have. You cant describe it, you cant explain it, but if you've been through it you know exactly how amazing and wonderful it is.
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congrats!
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Ironically, I have my appointment with the psych I am seeing about the PTSD from his birth.
Did her birth fix what happened to me from his? No. It has given me a view of myself I never thought I would have. And a feeling of empowerment I can't describe.
So now I continue to heal. And know that I learned from what I didn't know, and that benefited me, and both my kids.
You've been in my thoughts.
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Also, I miss you! I know that you're busy with this exciting time whilst work is eating me up, but I hope we can catch each other soon. ^_^
-M
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When your in that moment between contractions and then you realize that a tiny person is coming out of your body and your bringing that person into this world, that is a feeling that only Mothers can have. You cant describe it, you cant explain it, but if you've been through it you know exactly how amazing and wonderful it is.
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