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[ladyloveless]

It amazes me how much things can change in a matter of months (weeks, days, hours, minutes...)and I dont mean in a small way. Life altering. Scary. Exhilarating. Freeing. Binding.

I had the most amazing dream about Mike last night. I was waiting for him at the company...and he got off the bus in his DCU's. I started to cry, and he held me. I knew

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[mamachat13]

You are right about one very important thing.....you deserve to be loved just as hard as you loved him. Remember that. Especially during the rough times. You will have quite a few of those. I've been divorced from my 1st husband for 15 years and I still have hard times when it comes to that relationship. I still feel like I failed at the most important thing that I was supposed to succeed at. But I don't regret my divorce now because I know that I am in a much better place in my life now. It does get easier...just give it time. I know that everyone has said that, but I am speaking from the heart and from experience. I DO know what you are going through, and my thoughts are with you.

[ladyloveless]

Thank you so much! Its just so confusing...and frustrating...and disheartening at times...I guess I have no choice but to take the good with the bad!

[aimeepow]

Hey girl, I'm sorry you're not feeling so good today. Try not to worry too much about the dream. I know it's hard, but trust me, it is normal to have them. It's part of the healing process. You are really starting to become a strong single woman, but the rest comes with time. I worry about you, and think about you alot. No matter what, you can come to me, I do hope you know that. I know that things have changed a lot, but I'm still Aimee, just married, but never too busy for you! Call me at work, call me at home, send me an email, come visit anytime. I miss you a lot and don't want you to feel any pain, which I know is impossible, because Mike has really broken your heart. I was talking to a lady at work about your situation and Mike's situation. She had some really good advice. She told me that a friend of hers husband did the same thing to her friend. He was in Vietnam, and came home a totally different person and asked for a divorce, out of the clear blue sky. She was telling me that the war really does something to

[ladyloveless]

Oh sugar, I know...I just want it to stop hurting. I know Mike hasnt even begun the process yet, and that sucks. I feel sorry for him in a way...but I hate him for letting me love him as hard as I did. IT just hurts. I know it will stop in time, but right now it sucks! LOL. I know you are there, and I am sorry if I feel far away...I will try to contact you more. I need to. You make me happy.!! I will call you tomorrow while you are at work. I love you very much! carolyn