...I feel sad...

[ladymaidmarian]

And part of the problem is that I can't really talk to my family about why I'm sad.  When I do it just brings us all to tears and I don't think that's accomplishing anything.  I can't write my feelings on FB since too many of my family are there, so I've come back here.  Most of 'the family' doesn't even know LJ exists...so I guess I can vent

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[mrs_bombadil]

{{{hugs}}}

This weekend my family is participating in a brain tumor research fundraiser because my husband's best friend's wife passed a few years ago because of that particular cancer. And her boys won't be 18 for some years yet...it is incomprehensibly sad and I don't think it's something people close to those affected (and particularly those most directly affected) ever completely get over.

[ladymaidmarian]

Thanks, at this point I think you're right, I don't know that I'll ever truly get over this.

[major_dallas]

*hugs*

I don't know what comfort this can bring, but since maybe you two were so close, the part of you that was so in tuned with her as a friend and more is her witness to her children's growth in this world?

Really I'm no good at this comforting thing in writing, sorry :(

[ladymaidmarian]

Thanks Nate,

I know what you're saying. And she knew that I'd always be here for her kids, I just never really thought I'd be here without her.

(((hugs)))

[julephenia]

*hugs*

[second_batgirl]

*hugs*

[sherylyn]

I don't really have any words that seem like they will do justice to what you're dealing with, either. I know none of us can "fix" things for you, but we can always be here to listen and empathize, any time you need to talk about your SIL in ways that you can't do to others around you. I do know at least *some* of what you're feeling, and I hurt for you and for all that you're missing getting to celebrate and enjoy with your SIL. I wish there was more I/we could do for you! *HUGS*