You are awesome. Thank you. (And dammit, I want that sign. Because, y'know, I'm getting a first-hand introduction to the universe right now. It's so much bigger than I thought it was when I was locked in a store.)
don't I know it...krystalemergesAugust 4 2008, 07:44:26 UTC
and this was at the JPL open house...I couldn't resist getting a shot of it...and it was funny to post on my myspace (since there are those who have absolutely NO idea where in the universe I am...) for awhile postrophe was the only person in the world who knew where I was...
I have declared 2008 "The Year of Change". I would have never believed that it could happen but I am in a much better place than I have been in I think forever. I know about sorting my life, I just did a 21+ year purge, and it feels great. I suffered a lot for four months but in the end it has turned out much much better than I ever dreamed.
Here is a hug, and hopes and prayers that you look back like I am, and say What the fuck was I thinking!
*hug*
P.S. With all of the contacts that you have, maybe later, if you want to, you could start your own place, or perhaps an E-bay store....Just a thought.
I think really, it is the year of change. And it's going to hurt to start. It's going to hurt a lot. But, you know, sometimes you have to just hang in there until the scabs form and the scars ease.
I've been saying 'what the fuck am I thinking' for years. But the thing is, it was the family business, and something I'd devoted fifteen years to. If it survives on its own without me and Gary there, so be it, good, and I'm happy. If it doesn't, well, I gave it fifteen years of my life, and I'm not getting any younger... I've got a sophomore in HS to consider college for in a couple years, and I've got a life to live. So... we begin anew.
And trust me, the concept of starting our own place is an option, if not an immediate one. We're considering it. We have ideas, we have things to consider. But right now, we're just focused on the day-to-day of eating, finding work, and trying to figure out where to go from here.
So far, our direction is 'freedom'. And it's kinda nice, really.
I forgot to tell you, I feel so much better without the daily stress and fear, that the grey streaks in my hair are getting smaller every day. I had really grey temples, now I just have streaks. Believe me, it is like a successful surgery. Lots of pain at first but when you find your way, you will be amazed. You lose weight from less cortisol, the knot in your stomach loosens, your skin gets smoother etc. it is great. It is still hard, but soooo much better.
For me it was not the blood sweat, and tears (that you put into the store), it was my home. MY HOME that I had paid over 250,000 for over the years, then I got a 60 day notice. Fuckers. I am in a much better place now though.....
My next step is to find another part time job so I can have some real spending money....
Yep, freedom is a great thing.
P.S. I also heard that employers are preferring to hire older people now because the young ones don't have a work ethic. YAY!!!!
Well, hell, I've got a work ethic. I don't think there'll be any problem -there-. My father was a workaholic. He instilled in me the capability to work obscene hours. (Of course, unlike him, I don't -like- working the extra-long hours, but I can do it easily.)
I think I'll be a lot better without the daily stress. Course, I also won't have as much time to do crap online, but on the other hand, I'll just make the most of the time I've got.
*blinks widely* I do believe, mother that my reading has been complete for the next week. That was a lot to take in but I'm glad you vented. anyways, I'm going to read the most recent one and then I think i'll wait on MSN for a while to see if Mike finally does what he said he would. anyways. Love you. Hope things get better. Remember, everything is cheaper here ;P
Heh. LJ is weird, sometimes. I was reading Bayushi's lj, saw your comment, went, 'I know her! From ASiT, Shadowfey, and Bayushi's lj. I wonder how she's doing!'
I wander over, and just wince some.
Hope things turn around for you - when someone said that 2008 is the year of change, they really really aren't kidding - me and mine are camped in a friend's second bedroom, trying to do the same thing you are, without having put our heart and soul into something for the last 15 years...
Damn. Well, in that case, I wish you major luck in your moving, too. Maybe it's just how things are supposed to be this year... it's the year of flux, and we're all flux'd up. ;)
I went ahead and friended you. Been a while, that's for sure.
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Here is a hug, and hopes and prayers that you look back like I am, and say What the fuck was I thinking!
*hug*
P.S. With all of the contacts that you have, maybe later, if you want to, you could start your own place, or perhaps an E-bay store....Just a thought.
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I've been saying 'what the fuck am I thinking' for years. But the thing is, it was the family business, and something I'd devoted fifteen years to. If it survives on its own without me and Gary there, so be it, good, and I'm happy. If it doesn't, well, I gave it fifteen years of my life, and I'm not getting any younger... I've got a sophomore in HS to consider college for in a couple years, and I've got a life to live. So... we begin anew.
And trust me, the concept of starting our own place is an option, if not an immediate one. We're considering it. We have ideas, we have things to consider. But right now, we're just focused on the day-to-day of eating, finding work, and trying to figure out where to go from here.
So far, our direction is 'freedom'. And it's kinda nice, really.
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For me it was not the blood sweat, and tears (that you put into the store), it was my home. MY HOME that I had paid over 250,000 for over the years, then I got a 60 day notice. Fuckers. I am in a much better place now though.....
My next step is to find another part time job so I can have some real spending money....
Yep, freedom is a great thing.
P.S. I also heard that employers are preferring to hire older people now because the young ones don't have a work ethic. YAY!!!!
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I think I'll be a lot better without the daily stress. Course, I also won't have as much time to do crap online, but on the other hand, I'll just make the most of the time I've got.
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*hugs tight* I love you. Don't forget that, okay? I know how tough this is.
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It is tough, and I can use all the hugs I can get right now. It'll get better. It has to.
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I wander over, and just wince some.
Hope things turn around for you - when someone said that 2008 is the year of change, they really really aren't kidding - me and mine are camped in a friend's second bedroom, trying to do the same thing you are, without having put our heart and soul into something for the last 15 years...
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I went ahead and friended you. Been a while, that's for sure.
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