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So I log on to LJ today and all I see is a huge long-ass page of wank and flamewars going on over something Junsu said on Twitter. I'll be honest, I've been trying to ignore all the negative stuff and just focus on the good and keep my mouth shut about the rest. Until the lawsuit is settled, I don't want to speculate on right, wrong or anything like that. Obviously, I still have feelings though or I would have left fandom a loooong time ago for more peaceful pastures. Too bad no one in k-pop or j-pop made me love them as much as TVXQ.
So I'm just going to lay my feelings out on the line and people can say what they want. When the trio first came out about leaving, I was shocked. Everything seemed okay even though I know we as fandom used to moan and cry about how exhausted they looked and were begging/raging at SM to let them rest for more than 5 days in a year. But I consoled myself with the fact they were doing what they wanted, which was to sing and perform and conquer the hearts of everyone and were making big bank while doing it. Then I hear about how little they actually make from their contracts and how SM rules their lives like despots. After a while of reading, I was surprised there are no clauses for when they can take a shit or when they have to give up sperm samples so they can breed them a new generation of superstars.
I became even more shocked when I realize that HoMin were not joining JaeSuChun in the lawsuit. I began to wonder if the two were brain damaged or if the trio were delusional. After all, why leave when at the top of your game? Why, unless you feel like there's no way out and you're so desperate to leave before you're destroyed that you revert to an animal gnawing off its leg to escape a trap. But still, I tried to keep the faith and hope things would be resolved and my gods would come back. I missed them like crazy while the assumptions flew all over and the mess with Avex happened. Then when the letters came from HoMin and their parents supposedly, I saw red. I was happier when there was silence but when HoMin's side attacked and yes, I count SM as being part of their side so any actions taken by them are a reflection to me of HoMin's feelings, acknowledged or not, I felt my allegiances slowly shifting.
I'm not going to lie, JaeSu has always been my bias, but Ho was part of it too but musically, JaeSu will always have my heart. I still tried to be ambivalent about it. I supported HTTG with Yunho (even though I cringe at a lot of his acting), wondered where Min was, consoled myself with JaeChun's project and was overjoyed about Su's musical. When JYJ first formed under Avex, I was neutral. Hey, they still have to make money and eat during the lawsuit, but I wasn't sure if I would like it even with JaeSu being in it. I felt it would lack the fullness that is TVXQ's music. I'm still iffy about the Japanese stuff they did as JYJ.
When JYJ released The Beginning, I was still skeptical. Kanye West? Did I really want to hear music by my three with his influence? But I grew to love it and really, the three of them sound so smooth....
When HoMin/SM announced they would be coming out with an album, I was tentatively hopeful as well. I still don't like it that they're separate but I didn't want them languishing either. Then they announced they would perform as TVXQ and I felt my heart break inside, especially after all the talk of them defending TVXQ's dream/goals as if JYJ were traitors. Logically, I can understand it, seeing as how JYJ left SM and as a result, TVXQ, but to make that statement out loud...It's too much. How can you really be TVXQ without all 5 of you together? Simple, you can't. TVXQ wouldn't be where it was without Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu, just as it wouldn't be the same without Yunho or Changmin. How dare you ride on the name created by all 5 of you with just 2 of you??? Where are the convictions of TVXQ = 5 and 5 - 1 = 0? Sungmin and Shindong from Super Junior tweeted a response to Junsu's previous tweet, basically calling him a traitor. Who betrayed whom first? I can't see JYJ just up and leaving and not telling HoMin. There has to have been discussions that we're not privy to. And who launched the first attacks against character? SM, of course.
Still, I tried to support HoMin and I eagerly downloaded and listened to KYHD...I liked it but it has yet to grow on me. Looking at the lyrics now though, I wonder....They can say it's about a man and a woman breaking up but it's a very thin veil. I can't blame Su for tweeting his disappointment. Was it wrong for him to tweet it? Maybe. He's human, he's allowed to make mistakes in judgment. Who hasn't? Blasting him for it doesn't change anything. He's still human, they're still not together as 5 and fandom is still ripped apart.
There's been so much talk about how wrong JYJ are to leave, that they owe SM for their stardom, etc, etc. And yes, they're partially right. SM gave them a chance, but THEY worked for it, THEY had the talent to make it happen. SM owes them just as much for bringing in the money and putting them solidly on top of all the other companies. Can you honestly tell me that Junsu wouldn't have become a star with that voice? That some other company couldn't have taken that power and soul and heart and molded it into a superstar as well? That's bullshit. And SM wouldn't have the power it has today without TVXQ. Sure, they had Kangta and Boa at that time but Kangta wasn't that big at the time anymore and Boa was in Japan. Black Beat, FTTS, CSJH, all good groups but nothing in comparison to what TVXQ became. Super Junior, again good even great group, but still hasn't been able to come close to their fellow trainees' fame. Same for SNSD and SHINee.
It's gotten to the point where all I want to focus on right now is JYJ in this mess. No offense to HoMin but I seethe everytime I see TVXQ and only see you two and that doesn't bode well for me liking you. I will take a page from JYJ's book though and wish you well in your endeavors.
So I'm just going to lay my feelings out on the line and people can say what they want. When the trio first came out about leaving, I was shocked. Everything seemed okay even though I know we as fandom used to moan and cry about how exhausted they looked and were begging/raging at SM to let them rest for more than 5 days in a year. But I consoled myself with the fact they were doing what they wanted, which was to sing and perform and conquer the hearts of everyone and were making big bank while doing it. Then I hear about how little they actually make from their contracts and how SM rules their lives like despots. After a while of reading, I was surprised there are no clauses for when they can take a shit or when they have to give up sperm samples so they can breed them a new generation of superstars.
I became even more shocked when I realize that HoMin were not joining JaeSuChun in the lawsuit. I began to wonder if the two were brain damaged or if the trio were delusional. After all, why leave when at the top of your game? Why, unless you feel like there's no way out and you're so desperate to leave before you're destroyed that you revert to an animal gnawing off its leg to escape a trap. But still, I tried to keep the faith and hope things would be resolved and my gods would come back. I missed them like crazy while the assumptions flew all over and the mess with Avex happened. Then when the letters came from HoMin and their parents supposedly, I saw red. I was happier when there was silence but when HoMin's side attacked and yes, I count SM as being part of their side so any actions taken by them are a reflection to me of HoMin's feelings, acknowledged or not, I felt my allegiances slowly shifting.
I'm not going to lie, JaeSu has always been my bias, but Ho was part of it too but musically, JaeSu will always have my heart. I still tried to be ambivalent about it. I supported HTTG with Yunho (even though I cringe at a lot of his acting), wondered where Min was, consoled myself with JaeChun's project and was overjoyed about Su's musical. When JYJ first formed under Avex, I was neutral. Hey, they still have to make money and eat during the lawsuit, but I wasn't sure if I would like it even with JaeSu being in it. I felt it would lack the fullness that is TVXQ's music. I'm still iffy about the Japanese stuff they did as JYJ.
When JYJ released The Beginning, I was still skeptical. Kanye West? Did I really want to hear music by my three with his influence? But I grew to love it and really, the three of them sound so smooth....
When HoMin/SM announced they would be coming out with an album, I was tentatively hopeful as well. I still don't like it that they're separate but I didn't want them languishing either. Then they announced they would perform as TVXQ and I felt my heart break inside, especially after all the talk of them defending TVXQ's dream/goals as if JYJ were traitors. Logically, I can understand it, seeing as how JYJ left SM and as a result, TVXQ, but to make that statement out loud...It's too much. How can you really be TVXQ without all 5 of you together? Simple, you can't. TVXQ wouldn't be where it was without Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu, just as it wouldn't be the same without Yunho or Changmin. How dare you ride on the name created by all 5 of you with just 2 of you??? Where are the convictions of TVXQ = 5 and 5 - 1 = 0? Sungmin and Shindong from Super Junior tweeted a response to Junsu's previous tweet, basically calling him a traitor. Who betrayed whom first? I can't see JYJ just up and leaving and not telling HoMin. There has to have been discussions that we're not privy to. And who launched the first attacks against character? SM, of course.
Still, I tried to support HoMin and I eagerly downloaded and listened to KYHD...I liked it but it has yet to grow on me. Looking at the lyrics now though, I wonder....They can say it's about a man and a woman breaking up but it's a very thin veil. I can't blame Su for tweeting his disappointment. Was it wrong for him to tweet it? Maybe. He's human, he's allowed to make mistakes in judgment. Who hasn't? Blasting him for it doesn't change anything. He's still human, they're still not together as 5 and fandom is still ripped apart.
There's been so much talk about how wrong JYJ are to leave, that they owe SM for their stardom, etc, etc. And yes, they're partially right. SM gave them a chance, but THEY worked for it, THEY had the talent to make it happen. SM owes them just as much for bringing in the money and putting them solidly on top of all the other companies. Can you honestly tell me that Junsu wouldn't have become a star with that voice? That some other company couldn't have taken that power and soul and heart and molded it into a superstar as well? That's bullshit. And SM wouldn't have the power it has today without TVXQ. Sure, they had Kangta and Boa at that time but Kangta wasn't that big at the time anymore and Boa was in Japan. Black Beat, FTTS, CSJH, all good groups but nothing in comparison to what TVXQ became. Super Junior, again good even great group, but still hasn't been able to come close to their fellow trainees' fame. Same for SNSD and SHINee.
It's gotten to the point where all I want to focus on right now is JYJ in this mess. No offense to HoMin but I seethe everytime I see TVXQ and only see you two and that doesn't bode well for me liking you. I will take a page from JYJ's book though and wish you well in your endeavors.