My whole body feels like lead....

[ladyreo]

I received a phone call at 5am yesterday. The moment I heard my mothers voice I knew something was wrong. Mothers do not call you at 5am just to say "hi, how are you?" no matter how early they are known to call. I thought it would be about my grandad. He is really sick at the moment, so we are "preparing" ourselves. But no. "(my cousin) Jason has

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[psychotopia]

Hi..so sorry to hear about your loss. *hug*

[oh_contraire]

I'm so sorry... *hugs*
If you need anything at all, just let me know.

[rosanegra]

Oh, that is terrible, I was almost in tears myself as I read your post. I guess all I can say is just try to remember his good days and try put the rest away. And try to smile whenever you do remember him...it makes it easier.

lots of *hugs* and I wish I was there for you to give you a real hug.

[adonai_hure]

That's awful.

Condolences to you and your family, if you need anything let me know *hugs*

[honey_77]

I am so very sorry to hear about this. *hugs* I know only too well the feelings you are describing...first when my first love committed suicide when he was 21. Then my uncle. Then my grandmother last year. Each death did something different to me. I always thought that the feelings they say you go through were such a cliche. Until I went through them myself. Shock, then denial, then anger, then tears. Lots of tears. All I can say is I am so sorry, to you and your family. And I hope you get through this and one day, can look back and remember him with a smile and happy memories.