sister do not fret. I am very confused about life all of the time. People change and that's normal. I mean, I used to hate mustard, and now I put it on sandwiches all of the time. Just lean into your fate, try not to fight the change, and things will take care of themselves. try to enjoy the small moments. That's what I've been trying to do lately, and it helps. For example, I love when it is cold out, but my car is warm because it has been in the sun, and then I put wilco in (especially, lately, Being There 1&2), I just sit for a while and soak in the moment. or if i've been very busy and i'm tired of smiling at people i don't know or even like, i sit alone at starbucks and listen to the nice italian music while frowning at everyone, because at the end of the day, it doesn't really matter. anyway, I love you!
Thank you sister. You and I are so similar, it's almost like we are related. Your words give me strength, and know that I am always here for you and so is Ramey! Life is so weird, I was sitting in the bathroom at work today thinking that I am just going through a phase in my life...that when I am 35 I'll look back at my late 20's and call it my dark time, where I changed into whoever I'll be then, and be glad that I am over that time but thankful because it made me who I will be. Did that make sense? Then I walked a german shepard and was thankful that she was not my dog. next time we are together lets go to starbucks and frown at people together. love you!
yes that made sense. I am always hoping that i will be happier in the future, which makes me sad because that means I am not happy now, which makes me wonder if I will constantly be hoping for a better future, and never be happy in the present, which makes me think i should try to be happy now and not rely on the future. Does that make sense? I hate my job, can we go to starbucks soon?
Yes, that did make sense. But if I put all of my energy into trying to be happy now, will I wear myself out and when the future is here, will I still be trying or finally really happy, or just tired and unsure of my future? ah this is confusing. All I know is that something has to change, because I am not happy. I can try, and pretend, and hope. the end. I'm ready for sratbucks! Feel better soon ok?
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anyway, I love you!
love,
Melissa
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next time we are together lets go to starbucks and frown at people together.
love you!
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I hate my job, can we go to starbucks soon?
love,
melissa
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I'm ready for sratbucks! Feel better soon ok?
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lindsey
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