More thoughts

May 06, 2010 18:59

I was talking to dontcallmemolly  a while back, and I came to the realization that I have been typecast in my own life. I'm everyone's Sassy Single Friend Sidekick. You know the one- the friend of the protagonist in romantic comedies that always has a smart ass quip,  no romantic prospects of her own, happily helps her friend in her own romantic pursuits, a bit of a chunkerbutt. She serves the needs of the neurotic lead, assuring her that if she has nothing, at least she's not the Sassy Single Friend Sidekick.

I am the Sassy Single Friend Sidekick. 95% of the people I know are coupled up. I am indeed sassy, and single. I am also a chunkerbutt.

Know something else? I'm tired of it.

I want to know when it's going to be my turn to be part of a smug couple. I feel like the universe has decided it has something else in mind for me, and being part of a happy couple isn't part of it. But it's not what I want, dammnit.

I fall into the trap of  "If I'm so great, why am I still single? Why am I single most of the time?" sometimes. I'm friendly. I get out and talk to people. I'm funny. I must be doing something wrong. Maybe it's because I'm chunky and kinda plain. Maybe I'm strange and off putting and don't realize it.

I know that being single is better than being in a miserable relationship. I know that being in a relationship doesn't fix anything. I want what it seems a lot of people I know have- they're in love. 
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