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Life is a wonderful adventure and I'm enjoying, even the parts that I shouldn't. I'm working on seeing the good in everything and accepting that sometimes the bad bits can lead the to the most excellent.
I ordered Lite n Easy today. While I'm feeling much better about myself as a person, I still have a really terrible relationship with food and money. Lite n Easy will hopefully allow for a bit more space in my mind and take away some of my obsession with food, because it's been really getting out of control of late. Also, hopefully taking away any need to go to the supermarket will be a positive thing for my bank account. Today though, I'm having the kind of day where I'm eating everything in sight. Thankfully the woman I spoke to was an absolute delight and managed to get my order through so that my first delivery is tomorrow. I'm going in with an open mind and hoping it has some positive results for me. Also hoping that my doing it will encourage a friend or two as well. :)
The past few months have been filled with the friends I've made through reddit. Parties, dinners, hiking, shopping and of course, drama. It's been wonderful to feel like I have friends in the city that I can call and see what's happening and maybe catch up with. I definitely don't feel lonely any more, which at the start of last year was a very scary feeling.
Jordan and I broke up. It was my choice. I felt like I wasn't being a very good girlfriend, needing too much, worrying too much, not caring enough. So many things in the relationship were going wrong and I knew it but I didn't know how to fix it and when I did try, nothing changed. It took a while to accept that it was over, but I know I did the right choice by ending it. 4 years is a long time and while I know I still love him, I wasn't in love with him. What hurt just a smidge was that he started dating someone else within a week. I wasn't angry about it, I wasn't as upset as I was scared I would be and people think I should hate them both, but I don't. It was my choice to end things, I can't very well have a say in what (or who) he does. It wouldn't be right. And honestly, I'm okay with it all.
For now, I'm noticing that I'm back to sleeping with a stack of books in my bed. And the dog.
Anyway, on to 2015. Hopefully with some friends, travel, food and lots of laughter.
This post feels tacky. Hope my next one feels better. Maybe I'm just rusty.
I ordered Lite n Easy today. While I'm feeling much better about myself as a person, I still have a really terrible relationship with food and money. Lite n Easy will hopefully allow for a bit more space in my mind and take away some of my obsession with food, because it's been really getting out of control of late. Also, hopefully taking away any need to go to the supermarket will be a positive thing for my bank account. Today though, I'm having the kind of day where I'm eating everything in sight. Thankfully the woman I spoke to was an absolute delight and managed to get my order through so that my first delivery is tomorrow. I'm going in with an open mind and hoping it has some positive results for me. Also hoping that my doing it will encourage a friend or two as well. :)
The past few months have been filled with the friends I've made through reddit. Parties, dinners, hiking, shopping and of course, drama. It's been wonderful to feel like I have friends in the city that I can call and see what's happening and maybe catch up with. I definitely don't feel lonely any more, which at the start of last year was a very scary feeling.
Jordan and I broke up. It was my choice. I felt like I wasn't being a very good girlfriend, needing too much, worrying too much, not caring enough. So many things in the relationship were going wrong and I knew it but I didn't know how to fix it and when I did try, nothing changed. It took a while to accept that it was over, but I know I did the right choice by ending it. 4 years is a long time and while I know I still love him, I wasn't in love with him. What hurt just a smidge was that he started dating someone else within a week. I wasn't angry about it, I wasn't as upset as I was scared I would be and people think I should hate them both, but I don't. It was my choice to end things, I can't very well have a say in what (or who) he does. It wouldn't be right. And honestly, I'm okay with it all.
For now, I'm noticing that I'm back to sleeping with a stack of books in my bed. And the dog.
Anyway, on to 2015. Hopefully with some friends, travel, food and lots of laughter.
This post feels tacky. Hope my next one feels better. Maybe I'm just rusty.