Hmmm.... dontchya hate it when you HAVE to be creative...for a grade? Dammit! I can usually whip a story out of the air, but I can't see them at the moment. I have to write a short story for creative writing, and I really want to make it good. I'm so intimidated by JonPaul and Christina, who are awesome writers. When I look at my suff, it ( Read more... )

I often worry about what I'm going to do. I'm scared, I'll admit it. Everybody seems to know what they want out of life. I'm terrified of college. I know it'll be really hard. I went to the college career center today... looking for an occupation. I don't know what I want to be. I want to do something that I can wake up wanting to do with a ( Read more... )

Ugh. I have the weirdest dreams! I am really starting to be bothered by them too. Okay, night before last I dreamt that Jared dumped me again. It wasnt too great when I woke up, cause it seemed so real. Then, last night I had a dream that my dad died, which was just horrible. I don't know what my subconscience is doing, I think maybe it's ( Read more... )

Listen to your heart, before you tell him goodbye. I've rolled the dice. Whatever comes up shall be what destiny has in store for me. I think Jared feels really bad for hurting me. He's noticed that there's something different between us now. I think he's trying to fix it. Well, the patchwork will take a while before its strong enough to hold ( Read more... )

Okay, so my friend helped me out... ALOT! They showed me that I am a special, amazing , and downright fun person. I always knew that somewhere deep inside, but I guess I sorta forgot... lol Things will get worse before they get better ( Read more... )

Hmmm.... haven't updated in quite a while. Lets see, I had a wonderful Christmas. God has truly blessed me with a wonderful family and totally awesome friends!! (thankfully not all of them have changed) =) Anyways, my parents are getting me a laptop for Christmas/ Birthday! How awesome is that?? I'll be able to take it to college and ( Read more... )

Hello all, how is everyone doing...? Okay, so I'll get straight to the point. This SUCKS. EVERYONE LOVES to get drunk and go smoke cigaretts. I HATE alcohol!!! <-- I can't even care enough to look up how to spell it! ARRG! All my friends...mainly Maura and Arias like getting drunk. That is so EFFING STUPID. I'm stuck watching all my ( Read more... )

I don't know whats going on in my life anymore. I know that I'm really stressed. My feelings are strung out everywhere. I can't grasp onto anyone in particular. They whiz by and ellude me all day. Like right now... I'm very excited about it being fall, but I can't quite realize what I'm feeling about going to college...(I just got finished ( Read more... )

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When tears do no good. Quiet screaming does nothing. Just as this space in my mind cowers behind. A hole deep and as wide as the ocean leaves me to the empty blankets of space. Where there is nothing. Just black. Deep and never-ending. The stars go out, the sun stays down and there is only black. Then the flames of guilt spark to life and sweep ( Read more... )