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[laina_chaise]

Thanks alot. I can't think straight. I can't focus. the sais dont even look right in my hands today. I was twirling like I always do. showing off like I always have... and nothing felt right. I just... whats wrong with me? I can shake anything. Yeah... I can. you dont have a hold over me anymore. I dont even really remember you. ....yeah I do. it's

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[leonhart_x]

Hi, Milaina. Or Laina. Whatever. I saw you today, but didn't say anything. I figured you wouldn't want to be bothered. I understood.

You know, you really have changed from the girl I used to know. I was thinking about the past today. Sometimes I try not to, but today it was inevitable for some reason. Anyway, I thought about all of us when we were kids. It all came back to me when I was with everyone. It was strange. I mean, I remembered everyone else. But I learned that a while ago, during the whole deal with Sorceress Edea/Ultimecia. For some reason though, you and Rylie were blocked out from my memory. I wonder.. of all people, why was it you two? Rylie was the first girl I ever loved ("childhood sweethearts," but love nonetheless), and you... I thought about you and started humming a song. It was then that I realized it was the song you used to sing to me--before Rylie came along--to comfort me. I remembered that

Hi Squall o_o;

[laina_chaise]

Wanna know whats funny? You're the -first- person I remembered... yeah... I remember that song too. though I cheated... I had the lyrics writen down in an old sketch pad. I'm going to try at this... I am. but I'm scared. so... yeah. It'll take me a while to find myself... but I'll do it. I'm hating everyone for all the wrong reasons... ha. >_> it took me over a decade to realize that. In a childs mind I thought you all left by choice, and a grew up thinking that and never bothered to change my thinking... I understand it all a little better now...

Yeah... so... I still can't remember things all that well but... heh... yeah. I missed you guys.

Re: Hi Squall o_o;

[leonhart_x]

Well, by all means, take your time. Finding yourself doesn't happen overnight. It's not some "wake-up-in-the-morning" revelation type of thing. Not in real life, anyway.

Yeah. I think I speak for us all when I say we missed you, too.

Re: Hi Squall o_o;

[laina_chaise]

Yeah. so... when one of you guys isn't busy... wanna like help me... out here. I feel ... well confused. I keep thinking one person is the other... and stuff. and no one wants to know who i thought seifer was :|