One Shot: Realization
Title: Realization
Pairing: Matsumiya, NinoxToma?
Genre: Romance
Disclaimer: I don't own them, but I wish
Summary: Jealousy makes Jun realize his own feelings
Jun didn’t know how to feel, most exactly, he didn’t know how to act around him anymore. The confession came as a surprise; he never imagined he would have to reject a guy, much less his bandmate… his friend. Even if he was that everything was gonna be fine, that it wouldn’t change anything between them at work, he knew better. The fake smiles, that maybe only he noticed, the extra effort the other put in including him in the jokes, and mostly the traces of sadness in his eyes; everything just showed that the feelings for him were still there… or he thought.
When Toma appeared as a guest in one of their shows he was content, Toma was one of his closest friends in the business and he was also a friend with everyone in the group and that made a very funny interested episode, with shared secrets and fond memories. So when filming was over he wanted to celebrate with all the guys, he first invited Toma but the kouhai already had plans so Jun’s enthusiasms for the night dropped. He shrugged it off and made a mental note to ask them another day when their schedule wasn’t so hectic. However, minutes later he’d get a big surprise when, at the parking lot, he saw Nino getting into Toma’s car. Just the two of them.
It was weird. Toma hadn’t mention Nino before, and why would he reject the invitation when the others could just tag along. Definitely weird. Despite that, Jun just let it go, he didn’t want to interrogate his friend, especially about Nino.
But other events followed that one.
It started next day when they were in standby in their greenroom and Nino’s manager entered to drop a package in the gamer’s lap “He said call him” and with that the manager disappeared as quickly as he came. Everyone’s eyes were on Nino and the gamer flushed a little before recovering his coolness and putting the package inside his bag, ignoring the stares.
They all looked at each other, gazes deciding who would be the one to ask, fearing any repercussion as Nino was always protective of his private life and his wickedness incalculable. As most of the times, Aiba was the one elected; afterall he was already used to Nino’s target.
“Hey Nino” the tallest member sat next to him “aren’t you curious to know what it is?”
“No” was the sharp reply
Aiba doubted if he should continue but one look from Sho and Ohno forced him to do it “And... who send you that?”
Nino looked up from his DS, eyes brow furrowed in annoyance “What do you care?”
Aiba back up a little “I was… just curious” he mumbled knowing this was the limit
“Well, you can keep your curiosity to yourself” he spoke returning to his game and this time no one dared to ask for more, they knew better than to piss him off.
During that afternoon Jun couldn’t help but to steal glances of the gamer and throw glares at the bag where the box was in. He didn’t know why Nino receiving a present from a man annoys him that much. Or he pretended not to know.
Few days later they found out from Aiba that the present was a game Nino wanted “Limited Edition!” Aiba exclaimed excited. Apparently Aiba annoyed Nino until he cracked, earning well-deserved smacks, but not enough to know who sent it to him.
Just as Jun was about to forget the whole incident, another one occurred. After a group interview they were given a break for lunch. As they were sitting with their respective bentos, again Nino’s manager came in with a young delivery boy who put a special looking bento in front of Nino before disappearing bowing his way out. The manager smirked at Nino and followed the delivery boy.
The gamer opened carefully the cover to reveal a hamburger steak from Nino’s favorite restaurant. He grinned happily for the first time in that day and without caring about the other’s inquisitive stares he follow to devour his meal. This time Aiba didn’t dare to ask so Ohno offered himself silently to do the corresponding interrogation.
“Wow Nino, that looks yummy”
“It is” Nino nodded eagerly between bites, smiling in happiness.
“So… do you know who send it?”
Nino just shrugged his shoulders, purposely avoiding an answer, and Ohno just let it go.
Jun glared at the food, and didn’t eat much of his own. The view of a well eaten Nino should relieve him but instead he only felt bothered by the sight.
Nino finished his hamburger and was lazing off scratching his belly when his cellphone ringed, as he saw the screen he stood up and walked to the corner of the room. They all heard the muffled words of “Thank you” and “It was really good” to finish with “Yeah, I see you tomorrow”. When the gamer turned around and the rest quickly pretended they weren’t listening. Nino left to the bathroom and the questions began.
“Did you hear? Did you hear?!” Aiba was excited
“Of course we did” Sho responded with a smile “I wonder who it was?” he scratched his chin in his investigating pose, he gazed at their leader “Ohno-kun, Nino didn’t say anything to you?”
The older man shook his head. They stayed in silence for a moment, thinking of possible candidates
“Maybe Jun-kun should ask him” Ohno spoke out of the blue, making Jun flinched as if the was slapped in the face.
“I-I don’t think that’s a good idea” he responded flushing a little “why would you say that?”
They looked at him suspiciously for the way his hands were trembling
“I just thought… uhm… Aiba-chan and I already asked him, so…”
“I’ll do it!” Sho exclaimed “…just give me a few days” for the looks of it, the rapper of Arashi had a plan in mind.
“We don’t have a few days Sho-chan” Aiba whined “tomorrow they have a date”
“You’re right, I’ll see what I can, but-” the conversation ended as Nino returned to the room
As promised, they all saw that Sho and Nino left together, and they expected ho could get the information to calm their curious minds.
That night Jun couldn’t sleep well, he tossed in his bed, thinking of who was that wanted Nino’s love, because for him there was no doubt that this was a way of courtship, and he hated that fact. He remembered the day Nino confessed to him, his cheeks red as a tomato, his stuttering words, and his sad expression when he faced the rejection. He never thought of his bandmate in a romantic way before, but now he feel irritated knowing some other guy was after him. And worse, that Nino was receiving almost gladly those displays of affection. Did the love he professed for him vanish in just a couple of months? Was Nino going to another man other than Jun and pray around with his lover? Kissing him, making love in their spare time. The only thought that someone else, man or woman, touching Nino’s soft skin was driving Jun mad. Why in hell he couldn’t think of nothing more than to take Nino and hide him for the world just to keep him to himself, why this rush of possessiveness?
After hours Jun finally got his answer.
Next afternoon Jun arrived early to the TV station, he had called and e-mailed Sho but had received no response. To his dismay, the rapper was late and crossed the door with a smug smile on his handsome face. As Nino was in the room and filming was about to start, he couldn’t ask, he would have to wait for the break.
No one second after the producer told them to have a breather, the youngest member pulled Sho apart almost forcefully. “So, what did he told you?”
“Who?” Sho feigned ignorance.
“Don’t play dumb Sakurai, you know whom I’m talking about!”
“You’re talking about Nino” he stated dumbly.
Jun grunted, giving Sho his best glare.
“And why you care so much, I wonder…”
Jun’s mouth fell open “Y-you know?” it was a possibility that Nino told Sho about the confession, afterall Sho was the most trustworthy friend to the gamer, and that only pissed off Jun more.
Sho’s smirk grew bigger “Know about what? I only know Nino is taking Toma-kun to meet his mother and sister, and have a nice family dinner together” he stressed the last word.
The younger man’s mind was a mess… Toma… his friend… with Nino… the presents… and dinner… Nino’s family… Toma…
How could he be so clueless? How Toma could keep this from him? They are best friends, they go out for drinks frequently; now that he thinks about it, the last weeks he had barely saw or knew much of Toma. But why? Why Toma never told him something this big? And what the hell is Nino thinking bringing Toma to meet his mom and sister? He shouldn’t, Toma can’t. Only Jun should be allowed to being introduced as Nino’s lover. Only him.
When he recovered some sense of reality, he was standing alone in the hallway. Fuck, he thought.
He didn’t come back to the greenroom, preferring to hide in an empty studio trying to form a plan to stop this madness. If it was someone else, he could just scare the poor bastard away and take Nino to himself, but this is Toma. He never thought he would have to fight Toma for love, but he, Matsumoto Jun, would take what is his. Even if he has to bring Toma down.
Filming continued as planned, except that Jun showed himself more affectionate with his target, making jokes with Nino and taking every opportunity to touch his friend in almost inappropriate ways for TV. He thanked all the gods for fan service.
His plan for now was to pull Nino for a confession before he meets Toma, but when recording ended his manager pulled him for a review of his schedule and when he managed to escape Nino had already left. Sho and Aiba were gossiping in the couch while Ohno absentminded heard the conversation.
“Toma! I can’t believe it… Toma!” Aiba was in full shock, his mouth hanging open.
“He’s very nice” Ohno offered absentminded making Jun feel worse for hurting his friend.
Aiba recovered fast giggling “Well, they make a cute couple”
“They do not!” Jun yelled “They can’t!” he quickly argued.
They stared at him, Aiba tilting his head and Sho showing his now well-practiced smirk.
“… I mean… they… Nino…Fuck!” he yelled at the end giving up on hiding his feelings.
Aiba and Ohno’s mouth opened in astonishment while Sho smirk turned into a full grin.
“So, what do you plan to do about it?” the rapper asked.
“Eh?” Jun flushed a deep red although he felt relieved that he didn’t have to hide his feelings for Nino to his friends.
“Oh, come on Matsujun, are you gonna let everything end now? I thought you were better than that” Sho added.
“I… I don’t know…” Jun felt defeated.
“You could stop them!” Aiba yelled standing up to pat his shoulder. Everyone turned to him “I know where his mom lives… I like Toma-kun, but I think no one can take better of Nino-chan better our Jun-kun” he grinned at the youngest, and Jun promised in silence to take out his rings the next time he hits Aiba.
“I will” Jun promised, tears threatening to fall for the encouragement gazes and smiles from all three of them. With Aiba’s information he left the greenroom rushing for the hope that he wasn’t too late.
When Jun was out of sight, Sho let out a big laugh while his eyes were tearing up in amusement, Aiba and Ohno stared at him quizzically “You’ll know tomorrow… if everything works out we should have a celebration” Sho told them still laughing and drying his tears at the same time. Aiba and Ohno looked at each other and silently agreed to wait until tomorrow for news of the Matsumiya pair.
Jun drove as fast as he could, especially after he tried to call Toma with no luck. He didn’t know exactly what he would do once there, but he knew he had to do something, anything. Nino’s mom opened the door in surprise, but let him in as he was a dear friend. Nino, his sister and Toma were sitting in the living room having a pleasant conversation. Jun felt like an unwelcome intruder when all eyes were on him.
“Jun-kun, what are you doing here?” Nino asked him coming to his side.
The youngest member saw Toma looking confused and for a moment there he doubted, not wanting to hurt his precious friend, but when he turned and look at Nino´s eyes all doubts flew out the window and he could only think of how crazy must he had been to ever reject such a beautiful person. Gaining strength he spoke “Nino, can’t we talk… in private”
Nino nodded, sensing that this was a serious matter, somehow fearing something wrong had happened to any of his bandmates, or worst, to Jun. He led him to his old room, not expecting that as soon as he closed the door Jun would push him so his back hit the door and then Jun’s lips landed on his. The kiss was tender, filled with insecurity but also with other emotions Nino couldn’t accept because he didn’t want to get his hopes up, not after being rejected flatly not so long ago. It ended too soon, their gazes locked on each other, faces only inches apart. Seconds passed and neither move.
“Nino” Jun spoke softly keeping his hands on his bandmate’s shoulders in case he wanted to escape “I’m sorry… I’m sorry I made you wait, but please, please don’t give up on me”
The tone of desperation was evident and it touched Nino’s heart, his surprised expression changed to one of bliss, slowly he lifted his hand to caress Jun’s right cheek “Jun, I didn’t stop loving you… not for a second” and smiled sweetly.
That was all Jun needed to embrace the gamer tightly as if he could disappear in thin air any moment. He let out a deep sigh, feeling that he can breathe normally again now that Nino is his arms “I never thought I could love a man, but I do. I love you Nino. I’m sorry if took me this time to see it”
The older man chuckled “Silly J”
Jun pulled apart “But what about Toma?”
“Toma? What about him?” Nino tilted his head not understanding why Jun would bring Toma’s name
“Aren’t you… dating him?” he asked biting his lower lip to control his jealousy.
“Toma?!” Nino’s reaction made Jun blushed in embarrassment “He’s here to see my sister”
“Your sister?!” now it was Jun’s time to yell “But… but…presents… dinner…Sho…”
“Sho?” Nino got a feeling of what happened “so, Jun-pon was jealous ne” he teased the younger man.
Jun’s gaze dropped to the floor while his now boyfriend laughed at him, but hearing that laugh made him smile too, it didn’t matter how it happened what matters is that Nino is right now at his side and that he loves him. Yeah, nothing else matters. So Jun gazed up to Nino’s bright face and leaned for a kiss, silencing the gamer. This time the kiss was deeper, they eagerly tasted each other’s mouth as their tongues acted playfully, bringing out moans of appreciation. They kept going only taking a few seconds to get some air before starting again, his bodies glue to each other until someone knocked on the door.
“Kazu, dinner is ready, bring out Jun-kun ´kay?” Nino’s sister yelled. They had to stopped and calmed theirselves.
“I guess we have to go” Nino said in a sigh, and Jun nodded, his mind still fussy with excitement and arousal.
When Nino opened the door a thought crossed Jun’s mind making him stop “I don’t understand, if Toma is after your sister why would he give you presents?”
“He had to proof himself he can handle the family” The gamer responded as if that was a very important rule.
“By family you mean you”
Nino winked at him.
“You brat” Jun couldn’t help to smile as his lover’s brattiness. He also loves that about him, although it would be better if Nino never finds out.
“Yeah, but you love me anyway”
He took the gamer’s face in his hands and look at him seriously “Yes I do. I love you Ninomiya Kazunari”
“J…” Nino’s face flushed beautifully but he couldn’t stop the teasing “You should, I’m great you know” and added “I love you too Matsumoto Jun”
“Good” Jun pecked his lips “because I’ll never let you go”
With entwined hands they walked to the dining room, grinning in happiness for the love they have found for each other after years of being just friends. Realization may have taken his time but it came after all to bring these two soulmates together. For eternity.
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I know I’ve been kind of lost but work, family and Arashi keep me busy. I still have loads of videos to watch in my laptop. In the meantime I give you this, hope you enjoy it ♥