i don't like this feeling. and it's not going to go away. it's only going to intensify over the next few days. it makes me wish that the one thing i want and know will happen eventually will happen now. sorry if that's the easy way out ( Read more... )

so i just read something about someone today in one of the journals. needless to say, it made me feel like vomiting afterward because i care about this person and only bad things can come from what they're doing. i've never felt that way before because no one has ever given me reason to. i only hope this person realizes what they're doing before it ( Read more... )

sorry for being such a bitch. but i think i already hate myself enough for all of you combined.

i thought i had everything resolved regarding certain somewhat creepy matter. however, i have found out i was mistaken, things were only being avoided, not resolved. i tried to send a message loud and clear--if i don't call you back for more than a month, doesn't that say something? bordering on stalker is what i think right now ( Read more... )

today was ok. stayed up kinda late (for me) last night to finish the english presentation. forgot i had to write the where i stand thing so did that this morning in a short time, so it really sucks. presentation went ok. i think i bored people though, but i knew that would happen. people did ask questions though, so i didn't look completely stupid ( Read more... )

i wanted it so badly. i would have done anything for it to happen. and it still didn't. now i'm just realizing what slipped out of my grasp and what i will never have. and it isn't fair.

oh yes, isn't it wonderful when people are mad at you for no apparent reason? especially when you live with them.

finally got my prom pics back today. those cameras sucked. and some of the pictures were cut in the wrong place so half of 2 pictures is on one piece. it sucks. work sucked too, just because i hate working on the womens side. everyone goes there and you get long lines ( Read more... )

yeah...so today was kind of a waste. getting up early for that awards thing was really pointless. not to sound ungrateful or anything (or maybe i do) but who give a crap if the air force thinks i'm good at math? it should have been a department award, dangit. for sara too. people are stupid and i'm starting to lose faith that they will ever be ( Read more... )

so i took my one and only ap test today. i kinda didn't show up for the comparative gov't test and so i will be paying $13. well worth it not to waste my time for 2 1/2 hours. the gov't test wasn't so bad...well at least not as bad as it could have been. kara wrote "ANARCHY" in her free response question insert. it was great. i guess people were ( Read more... )

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