Self explanatory
I wonder why I haven't cried yet. Surely such a tradgedy should merit at least one tear. All I've managed are shaky breaths and a tightness in my throat. I feel as though I can't move on unless I do cry. I feel as though I've missed the pre-set mourning period. As though, after today, it will no longer be acceptable to be so upset.
My english teacher told me to give this to someone, if I couldn't speak about how I feel. But who to give it to? Not my parents, certainly they would blow it out of proportion. And if to friends, which friend? The guys wouldn't understand, and I've pretty much told everyone else.
And if I were to give it to someone, what would they be expected to do? They cannot force me to cry. They cannot make me accept anything. I would like nothing more than to have all my friends around me, to talk about thwta happened, to finally cry. This is not a likely scene, but I would rather that then my parents.
I am so confused now. What should I do?