my last entry... long but well worth the read.

[lanipua]

so last night i had an epiphany. i had all this shit all planned out in my head about my future and it worked... it could not fail. it was genius as many things are if i smoke on it. i went to sleep so freakin' happy... i was like "i should write this in my livejournal so as not to forget it." but i was tired so i waited till morning

Comments

your decision

[scottrossi]

i am not going to scream and whine and beg and plead with you to stay on livejournal jandee. it is your journal and your decision. but what i feel you should do is still check in on it, at least mine if noone else's as i am going to be in philadelphia, busy and very hard to get in touch with, and i will miss you! :)

[therealbenji]

I was sitting here at my Dad's desk, playing on the computer and I decided to reopen the livejournal and see what is new. I completely understand your desire to keep your feelings to yourself, I don't much feel like talking to people anymore these days myself.

As far as all the things you are dealing with, I hope things work out for you. I have a whole lot of mixed feelings about life right now and just as one half of me thinks it is a beautiful world full of wonder, the other half looks at the world as a spinning pile of crap that drains the life out of all that is good and rewards all that is not.
I don't know which side of me is right, but then again I don't know a whole lot of things I once thought I did. Good luck on your journey, peace be with you.

[lanipua]

if you haven't seen "big fish" yet you really need to. and on your opposing theories about life i think they're both right it just depends on how ya feel that day: )