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lapis_knight

Insecurities, Anyone?

Feb 18, 2006 00:00

I have a confession to make. I, Ryan Conrad Burger, do not actually Have It Together. I don't know if you thought I did, but I pretend to Have It Together a lot when in reality I most certainly do not. So if I deceived you, I cannot express how sorry I am. You weren't the only one deceived; I have done a very good job of deceiving myself ( Read more... )

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shopeinator February 18 2006, 15:25:42 UTC

" But then I'm afraid I would start to question whether they are spending time with me because they love me, or because they feel some sort of obligation to me ( ... )

lapis_knight February 18 2006, 18:20:39 UTC

Thanks. I hope you feel better.

coweringmeepo February 18 2006, 16:53:19 UTC

Well, I hate to disappoint that hope, but I in particular do read it.

And I guess I could turn on the waterworks right now and be all sympathetic and empathic and pitiable and be Emo with you, but I don't really think that'd do either of us a lick of good. So there. *sticks out tongue*

I think I do know how you feel, though. It sounds a lot like I feel some of the time. I wonder if it might just be a growing up thing. I don't remember too well, but I think I remember in Dune one of the big revelations that Paul discovered was that being Human was a lonely condition to be in. I wonder if "becoming Human" in Dune might just be an allegory for growing up...

And even if I don't always make it apparent, I love you.

lapis_knight February 18 2006, 18:21:47 UTC

Thanks.

I love you too.

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lapis_knight February 21 2006, 03:47:01 UTC

hey Chayla! Sorry to take so long to respond.

Thanks, by the way.

State is awesome. Even though I gripe sometimes about feeling alone, in the grand scheme of things, I really am surrounded by great people and I guess I just have to be thankful for that.

scaling_walls February 20 2006, 03:38:31 UTC

So I'm not a very pensive nor coherent man. Especially at 10:37 at night.

But maybe you're lonely because you place too much emphasis on human relationships and not with God? Maybe, maybe not. Just my one thought to everyone else's 20.

lapis_knight February 20 2006, 05:42:38 UTC

That's very true. I have been worrying a lot more about my human relationships than my relationship with God.

Maybe a case of not having priorities straight.