Schooooooooooool's out. Finally. Now I have the whole summer to fuck around, lose weight, read books, and turn in to a vegetable. Too bad I'm starting out the season sick, from either allergies or just a cold or something. I'm surprised I've managed to keep food down.

Bah. I had a long update planned, but IE crashed. I'll do it later.

Lately, I don't know how well I've been doing. I've been in this perpetual zombie-like state, and nothing really seems to cheer me up (save kicking ass in FFT or being able to perform a C minor scale in about every way possible, all at presto). School is out in a week, finally ( Read more... )

I'm sick.

I'm gifted. But I hate that term.

I can't help the fact that I'm falling for someone, again, and it's really disturbing. The rate it's happening at has only occured once before, and that led nowhere. But he's different, so, maybe something will come of it.

That's all for now.

<3 Benji

Do something, damn it. I'm going to. You should too. It may not appear to now, but it will affect you. Really. It will.

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It's finally official.

We're moving back to Colorado. I feel relieved, but I'm not happy. I felt okay for a few days, but now I'm back to my good ol' stoic, depressive state. Even my music hates me for it.

Sigh.

Today was okay. I sat around playing through the Brahms Piano Sonata No. 2. It's not an easy piece. I also worked a little on my concerto in C minor. It's coming along rather nicely ( Read more... )

Everyone who tries, thinks, or attempts to commit suicide does it for attention. Not because they lack attention, but because they want help. It calls attention to them as a cry for help. Most people have the misconception that a lot of people who contemplate suicide feel sorry for themselves and are somewhat deranged. No, not really. I did it ( Read more... )

I'm grounded from the internet until...I don't know. I was never told what the conditions that must be met for me to become ungrounded are ( Read more... )

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Today I am making an attempt to meet new people.

Today, I made a decision. I'm giving a book (thank you, Kelly), Now that You Know to my father to open up some communication port between us ( Read more... )